WEBVTT 00:00:39.155 --> 00:00:42.863 Good luck not eating this. 00:00:42.929 --> 00:00:44.733 Pork buns 00:00:44.800 --> 00:00:47.304 from Qian's. 00:00:56.757 --> 00:00:59.395 What, are you giving me the silent treatment? 00:01:02.468 --> 00:01:05.908 Doesn't seem very sophisticated for a therapist. 00:01:05.975 --> 00:01:09.181 I'm not your therapist anymore. I'm your prisoner. 00:01:09.248 --> 00:01:12.689 I understand why you would think that, but... 00:01:14.258 --> 00:01:16.830 ...you have to... 00:01:32.428 --> 00:01:34.799 Don't worry. It's not a head or anything. 00:01:34.866 --> 00:01:37.371 Oh, that's a relief. 00:01:39.877 --> 00:01:42.148 You ever heard of the John Doe Killer? 00:01:42.215 --> 00:01:43.751 I think so. 00:01:43.818 --> 00:01:45.855 The whole idea was to make it look like robberies. 00:01:45.922 --> 00:01:48.761 So the police didn't get one of those task forces going. 00:01:48.828 --> 00:01:51.934 So, you know, I took... I took all this. 00:01:52.000 --> 00:01:54.405 And... 00:01:54.472 --> 00:01:57.277 next think I know, they're calling me the John Doe Killer 00:01:57.344 --> 00:01:58.615 'cause sometimes it took 'em a few days 00:01:58.681 --> 00:02:00.317 to figure out who these people were 00:02:00.383 --> 00:02:01.787 without their IDs and stuff. 00:02:01.853 --> 00:02:05.126 And... now I'm kind of stuck with it. 00:02:05.193 --> 00:02:06.429 You believe me now? 00:02:06.497 --> 00:02:08.501 You don't think I believed you? 00:02:08.568 --> 00:02:10.705 I get why it's easier for you to think 00:02:10.771 --> 00:02:13.177 that maybe I'm not telling the truth. 00:02:13.243 --> 00:02:16.482 I believed you. 00:02:25.902 --> 00:02:26.937 Would you like a watch? 00:02:27.004 --> 00:02:28.273 No, thanks. 00:02:28.339 --> 00:02:30.277 Keep track of time for yourself. 00:02:30.344 --> 00:02:32.014 I mean, they still work. 00:02:32.081 --> 00:02:34.351 Most of 'em. 00:03:08.854 --> 00:03:11.961 It's hard at first for everyone, 00:03:12.027 --> 00:03:14.198 but especially someone like you. 00:03:14.967 --> 00:03:16.236 Someone like me? 00:03:16.303 --> 00:03:17.906 So in your head. 00:03:17.972 --> 00:03:22.381 That's where everything takes place, including meditation. 00:03:22.448 --> 00:03:25.253 Like I said, it's hard for someone like you. 00:03:50.905 --> 00:03:53.276 I'll be home by 5:00. 00:04:46.482 --> 00:04:48.654 Oh, come on. 00:04:58.306 --> 00:05:00.911 Shit. 00:05:07.692 --> 00:05:09.294 *** 00:05:33.944 --> 00:05:35.882 Okay. 00:06:22.742 --> 00:06:24.579 Thai food tonight. 00:06:26.717 --> 00:06:28.687 I got us Kaeng tai pla. 00:06:28.754 --> 00:06:32.662 This place makes their own sauce using fermented fish entrails, 00:06:32.729 --> 00:06:35.768 which I know sounds gross, but it gives it a lot of flavor. 00:06:35.835 --> 00:06:38.941 And then, Khanom moa gang. They use 00:06:39.007 --> 00:06:41.378 taro and duck eggs. That's dessert. 00:06:41.445 --> 00:06:43.817 You usually can't find it this way. 00:07:10.003 --> 00:07:13.442 I don't think you can open that with a plastic fork. 00:07:25.535 --> 00:07:28.372 After I do it, 00:07:28.439 --> 00:07:31.746 I'm... just... 00:07:32.515 --> 00:07:34.586 I bet most people couldn't... 00:07:34.652 --> 00:07:37.223 feel like that. 00:07:37.290 --> 00:07:39.529 It's not a normal feeling. 00:07:40.330 --> 00:07:44.171 It's more like... dead. 00:07:44.237 --> 00:07:46.676 I need to get better. 00:07:46.743 --> 00:07:49.315 Isn't that what you... enjoy doing? 00:07:49.381 --> 00:07:54.024 Isn't healing people? 00:07:55.928 --> 00:07:59.034 I brought you here so we could work together. 00:08:00.805 --> 00:08:04.311 I know you hate it, but... 00:08:04.378 --> 00:08:08.252 if you're not going to be a part of the process, 00:08:08.319 --> 00:08:10.758 where is that gonna leave us? 00:09:01.092 --> 00:09:05.299 Successful therapy requires a safe environment. 00:09:05.366 --> 00:09:09.441 The patient and the therapist have to be able 00:09:09.509 --> 00:09:13.750 to dig into... complicated emotional territory 00:09:13.817 --> 00:09:18.594 without anything like fear 00:09:18.660 --> 00:09:21.733 hanging over every session. 00:09:24.606 --> 00:09:27.277 I don't know what to do about that. 00:09:31.686 --> 00:09:33.524 At least I want you... 00:09:33.591 --> 00:09:38.299 to make me a promise that while we are in therapy together, 00:09:38.366 --> 00:09:43.343 that you will not commit any acts of physical violence 00:09:43.409 --> 00:09:46.783 against me or anyone else 00:09:46.849 --> 00:09:49.188 unless you talk to me first. 00:09:49.255 --> 00:09:52.595 You mean you want me to talk to you before I...? 00:09:52.662 --> 00:09:54.197 Yes. 00:09:54.264 --> 00:09:56.670 -So you can talk me out of it? -So I can 00:09:56.737 --> 00:09:59.676 try to help you... 00:09:59.743 --> 00:10:01.680 get out of it. 00:10:01.747 --> 00:10:05.487 So together, we can try to understand 00:10:05.555 --> 00:10:09.829 where this terrible need is coming from, and to address it. 00:10:10.998 --> 00:10:13.637 You have no idea what it's like. 00:10:13.703 --> 00:10:16.308 -I understand. -These * people... 00:10:16.375 --> 00:10:20.216 I work with a lot of people with very serious, 00:10:20.283 --> 00:10:23.356 almost impossible-to-resist compulsions. 00:10:23.422 --> 00:10:28.065 Making this kind of commitment is key to the process. 00:10:30.437 --> 00:10:34.044 -I don't think it's the same. -I'm not saying it's the same. 00:10:40.357 --> 00:10:42.427 I'll do my best. 00:11:30.791 --> 00:11:33.563 And actually, it was my wife's idea. 00:11:33.630 --> 00:11:36.402 Uh, she's known Chava's mother her whole life. 00:11:36.468 --> 00:11:41.078 So, if we have anyone to thank, it's the rebbetzin. 00:11:41.145 --> 00:11:43.015 Chava can keep up with your son 00:11:43.082 --> 00:11:46.288 in-in both the intellectual area and with humor. 00:11:49.461 --> 00:11:50.765 I'm so sorry. 00:11:50.831 --> 00:11:52.535 I should have brought a real knife. 00:11:52.602 --> 00:11:53.536 -Oh, no, no. -No. 00:11:53.603 --> 00:11:54.939 It's fine. 00:12:10.002 --> 00:12:12.173 -I was going to eat that. -This isn't funny. 00:12:12.240 --> 00:12:15.915 I'm upset, too, but we need to let him be. 00:12:15.981 --> 00:12:17.451 Oh, please don't tell me you don't hate this 00:12:17.518 --> 00:12:18.787 just as much as I do. 00:12:18.853 --> 00:12:20.390 He's rebelling, Beth. 00:12:20.457 --> 00:12:22.160 Everyone does it. 00:12:40.329 --> 00:12:43.303 So, should I tell you more about my life? 00:12:43.369 --> 00:12:45.172 Sure. 00:12:50.918 --> 00:12:52.286 There's this guy, 00:12:52.353 --> 00:12:55.561 uh, and I can't stop thinking about him. 00:12:55.628 --> 00:12:58.633 I wish you knew what this feels like. Uh... 00:12:58.700 --> 00:13:00.905 I did an inspection a while ago 00:13:00.971 --> 00:13:04.646 at a... a Greek restaurant in Garten. 00:13:04.712 --> 00:13:07.417 Greek, but a-a modern take. 00:13:07.483 --> 00:13:11.025 They do these moussaka-filled gyozas 00:13:11.091 --> 00:13:14.364 that just... dissolve in your mouth. 00:13:14.431 --> 00:13:16.235 I actually used to go there with my wife, 00:13:16.301 --> 00:13:17.939 even before I inspected it. 00:13:18.005 --> 00:13:20.110 You're married? 00:13:20.176 --> 00:13:22.214 I was. 00:13:23.316 --> 00:13:26.055 That was one of those things I didn't, uh, tell you 00:13:26.121 --> 00:13:27.591 'cause I couldn't be fully truthful. 00:13:27.658 --> 00:13:31.699 Anyway, uh, there were items in the prep cooler 00:13:31.766 --> 00:13:33.269 that weren't dated, 00:13:33.335 --> 00:13:36.108 and the refrigerator door seal needed to be replaced. 00:13:36.175 --> 00:13:38.547 And these aren't uncommon things, 00:13:38.614 --> 00:13:40.049 but they need to be addressed, 00:13:40.116 --> 00:13:42.788 and they affect a restaurant's rating. 00:13:42.855 --> 00:13:45.661 I explained it all to the guy who runs the place, 00:13:45.728 --> 00:13:48.332 the owners' son, and... 00:13:48.399 --> 00:13:51.706 he didn't think it was a big deal. 00:13:51.773 --> 00:13:53.911 I told him it was. 00:13:53.977 --> 00:13:56.783 He said I should come back in a week, 00:13:56.850 --> 00:13:58.520 and everything would be fixed. 00:13:58.587 --> 00:14:00.724 I said the current wait time for reinspection 00:14:00.791 --> 00:14:03.128 in Lincoln County is seven months. 00:14:04.933 --> 00:14:07.370 He thought I was trying to get a bribe. 00:14:08.172 --> 00:14:10.944 And he starts talking to me 00:14:11.011 --> 00:14:13.282 in this funny way, like... 00:14:15.019 --> 00:14:17.592 ...he knows how things really work, 00:14:17.659 --> 00:14:19.863 and I don't, 00:14:19.929 --> 00:14:22.434 and I'm just some piece of shit. 00:14:23.336 --> 00:14:25.974 And when people talk to me like that... 00:14:33.022 --> 00:14:35.093 Anyway, I just left, 00:14:35.160 --> 00:14:38.165 which is what I do in those situations. 00:14:40.403 --> 00:14:42.542 Then a couple weeks later, my supervisor, 00:14:42.608 --> 00:14:46.516 Kyle, tells me to go back right away 00:14:46.583 --> 00:14:49.454 and redo the inspection, no reason given. 00:14:49.521 --> 00:14:51.893 And when I went there, everything is fixed, 00:14:51.960 --> 00:14:54.197 and the guy barely looks at me. 00:14:55.332 --> 00:14:57.103 Smug. 00:15:01.947 --> 00:15:03.282 When was this? 00:15:03.349 --> 00:15:05.755 I don't know. 00:15:05.821 --> 00:15:08.459 About four months ago. 00:15:08.527 --> 00:15:10.931 And I haven't stopped... 00:15:10.998 --> 00:15:13.435 thinking about him. 00:15:16.208 --> 00:15:18.546 Every single day. 00:15:21.118 --> 00:15:23.388 I'm trying not to... 00:15:25.995 --> 00:15:29.167 I-I usually can't stop, but... 00:15:34.579 --> 00:15:36.682 I don't know if other people have this. 00:15:36.749 --> 00:15:38.285 Do other people have this? 00:15:38.352 --> 00:15:41.993 People get obsessed with interactions they've had, yes. 00:15:44.699 --> 00:15:47.170 I-I went back to the restaurant... 00:15:48.940 --> 00:15:51.812 ...the same night, and I parked across the street, 00:15:51.879 --> 00:15:54.250 and I waited until they closed. 00:16:01.933 --> 00:16:05.574 I've never done anything that they could trace back to me, 00:16:05.641 --> 00:16:08.145 but that night, I... I was like... 00:16:16.729 --> 00:16:19.000 I didn't do it. 00:16:23.142 --> 00:16:25.412 How do you think you managed that? 00:16:27.283 --> 00:16:28.854 I don't know. 00:16:28.921 --> 00:16:31.425 I didn't want to get caught. I guess that helped. 00:16:32.160 --> 00:16:35.333 And you said this was about four months ago? 00:16:35.399 --> 00:16:37.304 Yeah. 00:16:37.370 --> 00:16:39.608 Just before you came to talk to me. 00:16:39.675 --> 00:16:43.550 And you thought I could help you not hurt him. 00:16:51.967 --> 00:16:55.574 I need a pen and paper for notes. 00:16:59.481 --> 00:17:01.051 I really thought through all the things 00:17:01.118 --> 00:17:02.387 that you were going to need here. 00:17:02.454 --> 00:17:04.892 I'm going to need a pen and paper. 00:17:04.959 --> 00:17:09.501 I'm not going to attack you with a piece of paper. 00:17:09.568 --> 00:17:13.610 And you can find a pen that doesn't worry you. 00:17:16.114 --> 00:17:18.385 The restaurant guy. 00:17:19.956 --> 00:17:22.561 The more time that passes, 00:17:22.628 --> 00:17:26.770 the less anyone would connect me with that place. 00:17:27.538 --> 00:17:30.911 I think it's important to note that you did not hurt him. 00:17:30.978 --> 00:17:33.248 But I want to. 00:17:34.017 --> 00:17:36.421 I want to right now. 00:17:37.825 --> 00:17:40.196 You asked me to talk to you first. 00:17:40.263 --> 00:17:43.101 I am talking to you. 00:17:46.441 --> 00:17:48.780 It's not really helping. 00:17:53.523 --> 00:17:57.296 You've been holding this in for four months, Sam. 00:17:57.363 --> 00:17:59.635 I get why it's hard. 00:18:41.385 --> 00:18:43.690 Jesus. 00:18:57.885 --> 00:18:59.722 I'm late for work. 00:18:59.789 --> 00:19:02.326 Let's have a session after dinner. 00:19:39.835 --> 00:19:41.806 Hello? 00:19:45.713 --> 00:19:47.784 Hello? 00:20:00.744 --> 00:20:03.516 Can you hear me up there? 00:20:04.284 --> 00:20:06.387 I can hear you! 00:20:10.396 --> 00:20:12.534 Are you okay? 00:20:16.008 --> 00:20:17.711 Can you talk? 00:20:42.326 --> 00:20:44.665 Hello.