WEBVTT 00:00:16.500 --> 00:00:19.875 Do you hope to make a difference with this new trauma centre? 00:00:19.916 --> 00:00:22.958 We work in highpressure environments 00:00:23.000 --> 00:00:27.333 and your choices can save lives in the moment. 00:00:27.375 --> 00:00:29.625 - Erm... - But do you enjoy it? 00:00:30.208 --> 00:00:32.375 Erm... Sometimes. 00:00:33.166 --> 00:00:35.750 Er... Of course every day brings new challenges. 00:00:35.791 --> 00:00:38.041 You never know what's going to walk through the door. 00:02:55.916 --> 00:02:57.708 - Hi. - Hi. 00:02:58.541 --> 00:03:00.958 I'm... Dan. 00:03:01.500 --> 00:03:02.958 I'm here for the suit. 00:03:03.541 --> 00:03:05.291 Er... Sorry, I don't know... 00:03:05.333 --> 00:03:08.041 I work with er... Oxfam. Dan Bowker. 00:03:08.125 --> 00:03:10.791 Er... Your dad said I should come round and pick it up. 00:03:10.833 --> 00:03:11.916 Sorry. 00:03:12.708 --> 00:03:14.333 He's giving his suit to charity. 00:03:14.375 --> 00:03:16.625 OK. Erm... He's not here. 00:03:17.958 --> 00:03:18.958 He... 00:03:19.208 --> 00:03:20.916 Er... Has he left it out, or...? 00:03:21.000 --> 00:03:22.666 He didn't mention anything about it. 00:03:22.708 --> 00:03:23.708 Right. 00:03:26.833 --> 00:03:29.583 Well, I'll... I'll give him a... I'll give him a call. 00:03:31.333 --> 00:03:32.333 Sorry. 00:03:35.291 --> 00:03:36.666 Sorry about this. 00:03:41.958 --> 00:03:43.708 It's ringing. 00:03:43.750 --> 00:03:45.208 - You must be... - Alana. 00:03:45.250 --> 00:03:46.958 - His daughter. - Yeah. 00:03:47.041 --> 00:03:48.875 He's proud of you. He mentioned you. 00:03:50.458 --> 00:03:52.083 Voicemail. 00:04:01.250 --> 00:04:03.500 Hi, Jon. Dan Bowker. 00:04:03.541 --> 00:04:05.458 I'm at your house now for the suit. 00:04:05.458 --> 00:04:07.708 Your daughter doesn't seem to know anything about it. 00:04:09.791 --> 00:04:12.458 If you get a chance, could you give me a call back? Bye. 00:04:13.666 --> 00:04:15.958 Well, hopefully he'll call back. 00:04:16.000 --> 00:04:19.916 Perhaps he's forgotten, or left it somewhere. I hope he's not wearing it! 00:04:21.250 --> 00:04:23.458 He can take a while to get back. 00:04:27.458 --> 00:04:29.541 I came round here especially, so... 00:04:32.875 --> 00:04:34.541 Yeah. 00:04:34.625 --> 00:04:35.708 OK. 00:04:37.750 --> 00:04:40.250 It's OK. I'll wait here, and... 00:04:40.333 --> 00:04:42.958 when he calls back I can just ring the bell again. 00:04:46.958 --> 00:04:48.333 Do you know which one it is? 00:04:49.041 --> 00:04:52.041 Er... He was wearing it last time we met. A check pattern. 00:04:52.666 --> 00:04:53.916 He said he'd gone off it, 00:04:54.000 --> 00:04:56.958 so he was going to have it drycleaned and then give it to us. 00:04:58.041 --> 00:04:59.875 You'd recognise it? 00:04:59.916 --> 00:05:01.208 I might. 00:05:01.250 --> 00:05:02.833 OK. Er... 00:05:04.250 --> 00:05:06.041 Do you want to come in and have a look? 00:05:06.708 --> 00:05:08.791 - You're probably busy. - No worries. - احتمالا سرت شلوغه - نگران نباشید 00:05:10.500 --> 00:05:12.291 - Well, would that be...? - Sure. 00:05:12.875 --> 00:05:14.291 Thank you. 00:05:19.875 --> 00:05:21.416 Nice place! 00:05:21.500 --> 00:05:24.500 Yeah, they've been here a while. Done a lot to it. 00:05:25.750 --> 00:05:28.208 - It must cost a bit. - I suppose. 00:05:29.000 --> 00:05:31.291 You haven't looked it up on the Internet? What? 00:05:31.916 --> 00:05:34.041 I bet your dad has. That's what men do. 00:05:34.083 --> 00:05:36.208 They obsess about property prices. 00:05:36.250 --> 00:05:39.416 I don't think he's got time for that. And he loves this place. 00:05:39.458 --> 00:05:42.250 - I bet. - Wouldn't want to move. Up here. 00:05:43.000 --> 00:05:44.416 Yeah. 00:05:47.041 --> 00:05:51.541 Well, hopefully he'll... he'll call back while I'm still here. 00:05:51.625 --> 00:05:53.291 I mean, I could be making all this up. 00:05:53.333 --> 00:05:56.416 You don't want to let some weird bloke remove one of your dad's suits. 00:06:01.666 --> 00:06:03.458 Weren't lying. Look at these! 00:06:04.500 --> 00:06:05.875 Wow. 00:06:06.791 --> 00:06:08.791 Er... So are you at university, then? 00:06:08.833 --> 00:06:10.833 School. Just doing my A levels. 00:06:11.583 --> 00:06:13.958 And then you'll... you'll go after that? 00:06:14.000 --> 00:06:16.416 I might do a gap year first with my girlfriend. 00:06:17.416 --> 00:06:19.958 Gap year. That's a great idea. 00:06:20.666 --> 00:06:22.125 That's what I did. 00:06:23.250 --> 00:06:24.875 Yeah. 00:06:24.916 --> 00:06:28.875 Africa, then across to... Thailand, Indonesia. 00:06:29.583 --> 00:06:32.833 Little bit of charity work, but mainly just travelled. 00:06:32.875 --> 00:06:35.083 Best thing I ever did. 00:06:35.125 --> 00:06:36.500 This one. 00:06:36.583 --> 00:06:38.166 Right. 00:06:38.208 --> 00:06:40.000 Makes sense. He's had that ages. 00:06:40.041 --> 00:06:42.333 Yeah, we'll get quite a bit for that. It's quality. 00:06:43.166 --> 00:06:45.208 Erm... What time does he normally come back? 00:06:45.208 --> 00:06:47.000 Not till late today. 00:06:47.708 --> 00:06:48.916 Right. 00:06:50.000 --> 00:06:52.083 Er... I don't want to just want to take it. 00:06:58.458 --> 00:07:00.291 Dad doesn't think I should do the gap year. 00:07:01.000 --> 00:07:02.125 Sorry? 00:07:02.166 --> 00:07:04.708 He's always said I should go straight to medical school. 00:07:04.750 --> 00:07:07.000 - You're going to be a doctor? - Hope so. 00:07:07.833 --> 00:07:09.666 - Same as him? - Yeah. 00:07:10.333 --> 00:07:12.125 And that's what you want to do, is it? 00:07:13.083 --> 00:07:14.750 Yeah. 00:07:14.791 --> 00:07:16.791 Well, what's the... 00:07:16.833 --> 00:07:18.333 Sorry, I... 00:07:18.375 --> 00:07:20.333 - It's nothing to do with me. - What? 00:07:21.666 --> 00:07:24.833 Well, I was... I was just going to ask what the hurry was. 00:07:24.875 --> 00:07:28.666 If you're going to train to be a doctor, that's not going away. 00:07:28.708 --> 00:07:32.416 - Erm... What, you're 18? - 17. 18 next month. 00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:35.166 Well... you've got plenty of time. 00:07:35.708 --> 00:07:37.125 I wish you'd tell him that! 00:07:38.750 --> 00:07:40.791 What about your girlfriend? What does she want to do? 00:07:40.791 --> 00:07:43.500 Er... Art. She's into art. 00:07:44.958 --> 00:07:46.958 My dad... 00:07:47.000 --> 00:07:48.833 he used to... 00:07:48.875 --> 00:07:50.625 he used to control my life. 00:07:51.708 --> 00:07:53.500 I think that's why I went away. 00:07:53.583 --> 00:07:56.333 Sorry, I'm not saying that's what yours is doing. 00:07:56.375 --> 00:07:59.458 I'm sure, since you're an adult, you can make your own choices. 00:07:59.541 --> 00:08:00.583 Yeah. 00:08:00.666 --> 00:08:04.833 But it got to a point with my dad, one of the best moments of my life, 00:08:04.875 --> 00:08:07.458 he was really getting at me, going at me, 00:08:07.541 --> 00:08:10.708 telling me what to do, treating me like a child. 00:08:11.666 --> 00:08:14.916 And I turned round and I just told him to eff off. 00:08:14.958 --> 00:08:16.791 - Yeah? - Yeah. 00:08:16.833 --> 00:08:18.333 Stopped him in his tracks. 00:08:18.458 --> 00:08:20.666 - Everything changed. - Right. 00:08:22.416 --> 00:08:27.250 You see, at your age, you've got to claim... your independence. 00:08:27.291 --> 00:08:30.166 It's not going to be given to you. You have to... take it. 00:08:33.583 --> 00:08:36.458 Actually, he... he did mention your girlfriend. 00:08:37.166 --> 00:08:39.416 - Kate. - Kate, right. 00:08:42.166 --> 00:08:43.541 Saying what? 00:08:44.166 --> 00:08:47.000 No, he doesn't have a problem with her, or anything like that. 00:08:47.833 --> 00:08:52.250 But he has got a concern that maybe she's exerting an... 00:08:52.291 --> 00:08:54.666 an influence over you. 00:08:54.708 --> 00:08:57.750 - Maybe taking you off track. - Why? Because she's a girl? 00:08:57.791 --> 00:08:59.583 No, I think it's the art thing. 00:09:00.708 --> 00:09:02.333 And he also mentioned that... 00:09:03.500 --> 00:09:06.083 she called him by his first name when they first met. 00:09:06.791 --> 00:09:08.958 Er... She... 00:09:09.041 --> 00:09:11.291 Well, what is she supposed to call him? "Sir"? 00:09:12.458 --> 00:09:14.541 I just think he thought it was too soon. 00:09:14.583 --> 00:09:16.541 A bit forward. 00:09:16.583 --> 00:09:21.791 And that's made him concerned that she might be... leading you off track a bit. 00:09:21.875 --> 00:09:23.250 Yeah, well, she's not. 00:09:25.708 --> 00:09:27.333 Er... He's just concerned, I think. 00:09:27.375 --> 00:09:29.208 He doesn't even know you, and he's... 00:09:31.125 --> 00:09:33.000 I shouldn't have said anything. 00:09:33.041 --> 00:09:35.875 Do you know what? He is... He is a great man. 00:09:35.916 --> 00:09:38.958 And... I bet he's a great dad. 00:09:39.000 --> 00:09:41.666 Yeah, sometimes. He's just... 00:09:42.833 --> 00:09:44.791 Yeah, he can be a bit controlling. 00:09:44.875 --> 00:09:48.166 That's why he's not into Kate, cos it wasn't what was in his head. 00:09:48.208 --> 00:09:50.125 Sorry. It's just annoying! 00:09:51.125 --> 00:09:52.333 Not your problem. 00:09:53.541 --> 00:09:54.583 Has he texted back? 00:09:58.916 --> 00:10:00.375 No. 00:10:00.416 --> 00:10:03.250 Shall I try calling him? He normally answers with me, if he can. 00:10:03.916 --> 00:10:06.291 - Well, if you don't mind? - Yeah, no problem. 00:10:14.291 --> 00:10:15.500 I... 00:10:17.083 --> 00:10:18.708 Where did I...? 00:10:26.791 --> 00:10:28.125 What? 00:10:29.458 --> 00:10:30.916 Going mental. 00:10:31.625 --> 00:10:33.250 Must have left it somewhere. 00:10:45.250 --> 00:10:47.666 - What are you doing? - I've got your phone. 00:10:47.708 --> 00:10:48.916 What? 00:10:48.958 --> 00:10:50.958 I picked it up when we came in. 00:10:51.000 --> 00:10:52.958 I'm sorry. 00:10:53.000 --> 00:10:54.916 Well, can I have it back, then? 00:10:55.583 --> 00:10:56.916 Sorry. 00:10:57.458 --> 00:10:58.458 Shit. 00:10:59.166 --> 00:11:02.625 OK. Er... What's going on? 00:11:04.750 --> 00:11:06.333 What do you want? 00:11:11.208 --> 00:11:13.208 I just want it to be fair. 00:11:33.500 --> 00:11:35.125 - Denise? - Yeah. 00:11:35.208 --> 00:11:37.083 Can you cancel the last one for today? 00:11:37.125 --> 00:11:39.791 - Cancel it? But you... - I'm not feeling very well. 00:11:39.875 --> 00:11:41.875 Yeah, OK. 00:12:10.500 --> 00:12:12.041 Yes, fine. Shall we go? 00:12:12.083 --> 00:12:15.208 Er... I'm sorry. I've literally just been called back. 00:12:15.250 --> 00:12:17.500 - You said you'd have some time. - Yeah, I thought I would, but 00:12:17.500 --> 00:12:18.000 you know how it is. 00:12:18.583 --> 00:12:20.416 Right. 00:12:20.500 --> 00:12:22.166 What? What's wrong? 00:12:23.041 --> 00:12:24.208 Are you happy? 00:12:24.250 --> 00:12:25.875 Well, yes. 00:12:25.916 --> 00:12:27.833 With me? With us? 00:12:28.458 --> 00:12:31.000 Of course. Has something happened? 00:12:32.291 --> 00:12:33.375 I don't know. 00:12:33.458 --> 00:12:35.583 - Sorry. Jon? - Er... Yes. 00:12:37.875 --> 00:12:42.166 Yeah. Listen, we'll talk tonight, OK? Whatever it is, we'll sort it out. 00:12:43.375 --> 00:12:45.166 Yeah, it's fine. I'll see you later. OK. 00:12:45.916 --> 00:12:47.541 Love you. 00:13:24.666 --> 00:13:26.208 Mr Bowker? 00:13:26.250 --> 00:13:29.708 I'm sorry to come to your house. I know how this must look. II... 00:13:31.291 --> 00:13:33.458 I really need to talk to somebody. 00:13:33.541 --> 00:13:37.708 Right. Sorry, but how did you get my address? 00:13:39.083 --> 00:13:41.250 It's listed on the company's website. 00:13:41.291 --> 00:13:43.750 It's... It's your correspondence address. 00:13:43.791 --> 00:13:45.833 I don't see people here. You'll... 00:13:45.875 --> 00:13:48.166 You'll have to make an appointment at the office. 00:13:48.666 --> 00:13:49.666 My wife has left me. 00:13:49.666 --> 00:13:51.041 That must be very distressing. 00:13:51.083 --> 00:13:52.666 I know this must seem... 00:13:54.333 --> 00:13:55.666 dangerous. 00:13:55.708 --> 00:13:57.000 Whatever. 00:13:58.041 --> 00:14:00.750 God, you're freaked out. Of course you are. God, I... 00:14:01.791 --> 00:14:02.916 Mistake. 00:14:03.583 --> 00:14:06.250 Sorry, I'll... I'll go. 00:14:08.375 --> 00:14:11.166 Daniel... Are you all right? 00:14:15.791 --> 00:14:19.333 I was walking over the bridge on the way here 00:14:19.333 --> 00:14:20.583 you know, the one over the main road... 00:14:20.583 --> 00:14:23.750 And I wanted to jump in front of the traffic. 00:14:25.083 --> 00:14:28.666 No, I'm going to come here, and you... 00:14:32.333 --> 00:14:34.083 It doesn't matter. Forget it. 00:14:36.166 --> 00:14:38.666 My daughter... My daughter's away this evening. 00:14:38.708 --> 00:14:42.708 So if you come in... we can talk for half an hour. 00:14:43.833 --> 00:14:45.833 Would that be all right? 00:14:49.333 --> 00:14:50.500 Thank you. 00:15:00.666 --> 00:15:02.625 Nice place. 00:15:02.666 --> 00:15:04.375 Coffee? 00:15:04.416 --> 00:15:07.750 - Yeah, that would be great. Thanks. - Would you like to sit down? 00:15:07.791 --> 00:15:09.208 OK. 00:16:02.333 --> 00:16:05.875 I'm like, "You're saying it wrong. It's satsumaah." 00:16:05.916 --> 00:16:08.458 Sat... Satsumaah? You mean satsuma. 00:16:08.541 --> 00:16:10.625 I just learnt it wrong as a kid. 00:16:10.666 --> 00:16:11.791 Satsu-maah. 00:16:11.833 --> 00:16:15.458 But now I'm realising every time I've said it for the last 35 years, 00:16:15.458 --> 00:16:17.583 people must have been like, "What's wrong with her?" 00:16:17.583 --> 00:16:20.666 - How did you get through medical school? - You must have things like that? 00:16:20.708 --> 00:16:22.416 - Er... Nope. - You do! 00:16:22.458 --> 00:16:24.041 I really do not. 00:16:25.250 --> 00:16:28.083 - Do you want a drink tonight? - Sorry? 00:16:28.333 --> 00:16:30.083 When we clock off, do you want to go for a drink? 00:16:30.083 --> 00:16:33.458 - You mean...? - An alcoholic liquid. 00:16:33.500 --> 00:16:35.500 - Are you going with friends? - No. 00:16:37.916 --> 00:16:38.916 Well, I... 00:16:39.583 --> 00:16:41.666 Well, I probably should get back, you know. 00:16:41.750 --> 00:16:43.625 - See how you feel. - We're working late. 00:16:46.916 --> 00:16:48.166 Everything all right? 00:16:51.625 --> 00:16:53.708 - Jon? - Erm... 00:16:53.791 --> 00:16:56.250 It's a family er... crisis. You... 00:16:56.291 --> 00:16:58.750 - Find someone to cover. - Of course. What's happened? 00:17:02.500 --> 00:17:05.416 'Hi. This is Lisa Allerton. Please leave a message.' 00:17:13.416 --> 00:17:15.000 What happened? 00:17:16.583 --> 00:17:20.375 Well, I told you that I was attracted to other people. 00:17:21.541 --> 00:17:24.666 And since we met I've been thinking about it, and... 00:17:26.500 --> 00:17:32.041 Sorry. That light fitting, I was looking at it just now. 00:17:32.083 --> 00:17:33.291 It's amazing. 00:17:33.333 --> 00:17:35.125 Was it expensive? 00:17:35.166 --> 00:17:38.083 I'm... I'm not sure what we paid for it. 00:17:41.916 --> 00:17:43.916 This is such a nice house. 00:17:43.958 --> 00:17:45.375 Thank you. 00:17:46.083 --> 00:17:48.791 It must be worth so much money. 00:17:53.458 --> 00:17:55.666 Do you want to go back and tell me about your wife? 00:17:56.500 --> 00:17:57.916 Yeah. 00:17:59.125 --> 00:18:01.916 Well, the * didn't work. 00:18:03.041 --> 00:18:04.416 I wasn't in a good place. 00:18:05.000 --> 00:18:07.333 Since we last spoke I've lost my job. 00:18:07.375 --> 00:18:09.000 I'm sorry to hear that. 00:18:09.041 --> 00:18:11.083 - You said it was a coffee shop. - Yeah. 00:18:11.125 --> 00:18:15.000 It was working out well, and then they took me to one side 00:18:15.041 --> 00:18:18.583 and said, as my probation period is coming to an end... 00:18:19.666 --> 00:18:22.208 - they didn't need me any more. - Did they give a reason? 00:18:22.250 --> 00:18:24.500 Yeah, they gave me three reasons... all bullshit. 00:18:25.750 --> 00:18:28.041 - I know the real reason. - What? 00:18:28.791 --> 00:18:32.291 - £15,000 pounds. - I'm sorry? 00:18:32.333 --> 00:18:37.333 I was watching a programme on TV about building really expensive houses, 00:18:37.375 --> 00:18:43.166 and these people had a... a light fitting like that made especially, bespoke, 00:18:43.208 --> 00:18:47.458 and it cost about...£15,000. 00:18:47.500 --> 00:18:49.625 As I say, I er... I don't remember. 00:18:51.416 --> 00:18:53.416 You don't remember that much money? 00:18:55.791 --> 00:18:59.083 What was the reason, Dan... that you lost your job? 00:19:02.125 --> 00:19:05.041 So, yeah, the * wasn't working. 00:19:05.958 --> 00:19:07.958 And she just had enough. 00:19:08.583 --> 00:19:10.583 And she left me. 00:19:11.208 --> 00:19:13.000 Did she take the children? 00:19:15.000 --> 00:19:16.375 Your daughter. 00:19:17.208 --> 00:19:18.666 Is she your only child? 00:19:18.750 --> 00:19:20.500 Did I mention that I had a daughter? 00:19:21.125 --> 00:19:22.708 You said she was away. 00:19:23.750 --> 00:19:25.458 Right. 00:19:25.500 --> 00:19:26.875 And... 00:19:27.916 --> 00:19:29.250 Right. 00:19:30.833 --> 00:19:33.666 I was picked on. That's why I lost my job. I was bullied. 00:19:33.750 --> 00:19:35.125 By who? 00:19:35.791 --> 00:19:38.291 Your husband is a doctor? 00:19:42.916 --> 00:19:44.500 You know that as well? 00:19:46.625 --> 00:19:48.625 Yeah. 00:19:49.916 --> 00:19:52.416 Dan, did you send me some photos earlier on today? 00:20:01.958 --> 00:20:04.666 I just wanted you to know the truth. 00:20:05.416 --> 00:20:09.208 I didn't have to hang around long before I... I saw them together. 00:20:09.833 --> 00:20:11.708 And then I spoke to one of his colleagues, 00:20:11.791 --> 00:20:16.458 and they said, "Yeah, everybody knows about their flirting." 00:20:21.125 --> 00:20:22.916 Your husband. 00:20:24.625 --> 00:20:26.666 Do you trust him? 00:20:26.708 --> 00:20:27.875 Of course. 00:20:28.875 --> 00:20:30.875 Even now? 00:20:32.958 --> 00:20:34.833 We're married. 00:20:38.166 --> 00:20:39.375 Right. 00:20:41.333 --> 00:20:43.750 We're going to finish now. 00:20:43.833 --> 00:20:45.625 It's a shock... 00:20:46.875 --> 00:20:49.125 to think that he might have been with another woman, 00:20:49.166 --> 00:20:52.416 because he's always been so reliable. 00:20:52.416 --> 00:20:56.000 Have you ever thought that he might not be the person that you think he is? 00:20:58.000 --> 00:21:02.083 I know things have been difficult for you at the moment... 00:21:03.083 --> 00:21:06.250 and you've developed some interest in me. 00:21:07.625 --> 00:21:10.208 So I'm going to ask you to leave now. 00:21:11.958 --> 00:21:13.750 I haven't finished my coffee. 00:21:15.958 --> 00:21:18.208 If you don't leave now, Dan... 00:21:18.958 --> 00:21:21.375 I'm going to call the police. 00:21:21.416 --> 00:21:25.208 And given everything that's gone on, I really don't think you need that. 00:21:27.208 --> 00:21:29.000 It's not there. 00:21:40.083 --> 00:21:41.541 No. 00:21:46.458 --> 00:21:48.041 Sorry. 00:21:55.291 --> 00:21:56.625 I'm sorry. 00:22:00.625 --> 00:22:04.041 You don't need that for me to listen to you. 00:22:05.708 --> 00:22:08.791 I sent you that text message... earlier. 00:22:12.166 --> 00:22:14.166 Your daughter was here. 00:22:16.458 --> 00:22:18.458 She listened. 00:22:20.041 --> 00:22:21.583 'Hi. This is Lisa Allerton.' 00:22:21.625 --> 00:22:23.375 Where is she? 00:22:24.125 --> 00:22:25.458 Is she OK? 00:22:34.416 --> 00:22:36.000 Is she all right?! 00:22:53.458 --> 00:22:56.250 Come on, come on, come on, come on. Come on! 00:22:56.333 --> 00:22:57.583 Come on, come on, come on. 00:23:00.041 --> 00:23:01.250 Where is she? 00:23:06.458 --> 00:23:07.791 She's upstairs. 00:23:09.708 --> 00:23:11.166 Come down. 00:23:11.250 --> 00:23:14.375 I told her not to make any noise... or I'd hurt you. 00:23:14.958 --> 00:23:18.625 I wanted to speak to you first, find out whether you trusted your husband. 00:23:20.208 --> 00:23:22.250 You don't. Come down. 00:23:25.541 --> 00:23:26.958 In there. 00:23:28.166 --> 00:23:29.541 - Mum. - It's OK. 00:23:30.083 --> 00:23:31.791 No. No. 00:23:35.291 --> 00:23:38.041 - Whatever this is about... - Don't you talk to your husband? 00:23:38.083 --> 00:23:40.333 Mum, he said his son was dead. 00:23:41.083 --> 00:23:44.208 It's all right. This... This is Dan Bowker. 00:23:44.250 --> 00:23:46.875 He came and had his first session with me last week. 00:23:46.916 --> 00:23:48.833 - His son died of cancer. - He didn't. 00:23:50.625 --> 00:23:52.333 - He... - He died. Wasn't cancer. 00:23:54.041 --> 00:23:57.125 His name... was Alex. 00:23:59.875 --> 00:24:02.291 You're looking down on me, pitying. No. 00:24:02.333 --> 00:24:05.708 You reckon that people like me, with less money and more problems, 00:24:05.750 --> 00:24:07.541 that we bring it all upon ourselves. 00:24:07.583 --> 00:24:10.750 No, that is absolutely not the case. Mum... 00:24:10.791 --> 00:24:14.208 Please, please let my daughter go. She has nothing to do with this. 00:24:14.250 --> 00:24:16.958 How do you know? You don't know what this is about. 00:24:17.041 --> 00:24:19.541 Because your husband is not honest! 00:24:20.458 --> 00:24:22.208 My husband? 00:24:22.250 --> 00:24:27.458 This is about... jjustice, consequences. 00:24:27.500 --> 00:24:30.625 And your whole family needs to understand. No! 00:24:30.666 --> 00:24:32.958 - What? - No! No, please! 00:24:35.291 --> 00:24:36.791 Tell me about him. 00:24:36.875 --> 00:24:39.416 This man you've been married to for all these years. 00:24:40.166 --> 00:24:41.750 Where did you meet? 00:24:41.791 --> 00:24:44.291 We er... We trained together. 00:24:44.333 --> 00:24:45.750 And what did you like about him? 00:24:46.875 --> 00:24:48.750 He was er... He was handsome. 00:24:48.791 --> 00:24:50.458 He was... He was kind. 00:24:51.375 --> 00:24:53.500 - Honest? - Always. 00:24:53.541 --> 00:24:54.958 - You still think that? - Yes. 00:24:55.041 --> 00:24:57.833 Even now you know that he's sleeping with somebody else? 00:24:57.916 --> 00:25:00.041 - Mum? - It's all right. It's OK. 00:25:01.708 --> 00:25:03.958 I don't believe he is sleeping with anybody else. 00:25:04.041 --> 00:25:07.541 Yes, you do. I saw it in your face, just now. 00:25:08.708 --> 00:25:11.625 And now that you know that he's got one secret... 00:25:11.666 --> 00:25:14.791 what else has he been hiding from you? What does he mean? 00:25:15.666 --> 00:25:17.791 - Show her the photos. - No. 00:25:17.833 --> 00:25:20.083 - No, she doesn't need to see... - Show her. 00:25:32.041 --> 00:25:35.625 So, if that woman came on to him, what do you think he would say? 00:25:37.291 --> 00:25:39.541 - I'm not doing this. - Yes, you are! 00:25:40.958 --> 00:25:43.000 He'd say, "I'm... I'm married." 00:25:44.125 --> 00:25:46.708 - And then? - What do you want? 00:25:46.750 --> 00:25:48.500 What happened? 00:25:49.083 --> 00:25:51.083 To Alex. 00:25:58.208 --> 00:25:59.416 Alex... 00:26:01.333 --> 00:26:03.000 was stabbed. 00:26:04.125 --> 00:26:06.125 And I've done research. 00:26:07.000 --> 00:26:08.250 And people that are stabbed, 00:26:08.291 --> 00:26:11.375 and they're alive when they get to the hospital, like Alex was, 00:26:11.375 --> 00:26:13.375 most of them don't die. 00:26:14.000 --> 00:26:16.375 Alex should still be here. 00:26:16.416 --> 00:26:19.750 Your dad made a mistake, and he knows it. 00:26:20.958 --> 00:26:22.833 Why do you think that? 00:26:23.000 --> 00:26:25.125 Because, otherwise, why would he have lied? 00:26:25.166 --> 00:26:26.375 When did he lie? 00:26:27.041 --> 00:26:30.458 He told me he'd had a few drinks for his birthday. 00:26:30.541 --> 00:26:33.750 Now, his birthday was the night that it happened. 00:26:35.583 --> 00:26:38.875 And later, when I asked him about it, he changed his story. 00:26:38.916 --> 00:26:41.333 OK. Yeah. 00:26:43.083 --> 00:26:44.208 It's not too late. 00:26:46.000 --> 00:26:48.291 You can put the knife down. 00:26:49.916 --> 00:26:51.708 Walk away. Like... 00:26:53.166 --> 00:26:55.458 grieve for Alex. 00:27:00.791 --> 00:27:04.916 We'll all understand... and forget it happened. 00:27:05.791 --> 00:27:07.958 Right, Mum? He does have that option. 00:27:08.041 --> 00:27:09.583 Yes. Yes. 00:27:10.500 --> 00:27:12.208 Absolutely. 00:27:12.250 --> 00:27:14.500 You hate this, don't you? 00:27:15.625 --> 00:27:18.541 So just... stop. 00:27:25.916 --> 00:27:26.916 Dad? 00:27:34.166 --> 00:27:35.833 OK? 00:27:36.333 --> 00:27:37.958 - Are you all right? - Yeah. 00:27:40.375 --> 00:27:43.250 - What are you doing? - You took away all my options. 00:27:45.041 --> 00:27:47.791 You had me fired. - No, they said they were going to move you. 00:27:47.833 --> 00:27:49.125 Jon, who is he? 00:27:49.166 --> 00:27:51.708 Let them leave and we can talk. 00:27:51.750 --> 00:27:53.375 I don't want to talk. 00:27:57.416 --> 00:28:01.416 I want you to know how it feels to have your child... 00:28:02.333 --> 00:28:03.708 about to die. 00:28:05.958 --> 00:28:09.833 Stab wound, under the ribs, lefthand side. 00:28:09.875 --> 00:28:11.250 - Jon... - Wait, wait. 00:28:11.291 --> 00:28:13.083 You fail to protect her. 00:28:13.125 --> 00:28:14.875 You watch another man kill her. 00:28:16.708 --> 00:28:19.291 Then you will know what it feels like. 00:28:19.333 --> 00:28:20.875 I did everything I could for Alex. 00:28:20.916 --> 00:28:23.375 You'd been drinking that night. 00:28:23.458 --> 00:28:25.250 One drink, much earlier. 00:28:25.833 --> 00:28:28.958 "A few drinks", you said, for your birthday. 00:28:29.000 --> 00:28:31.375 An expression. It was only one. 00:28:31.458 --> 00:28:34.666 No, Jon. It was more than that. 00:28:34.708 --> 00:28:35.833 Lisa... 00:28:35.875 --> 00:28:39.541 I think it's really important to him that we tell him the truth. 00:28:41.416 --> 00:28:43.291 And I was there. 00:28:43.333 --> 00:28:47.583 - I'm sure he... - I'm sure what's important to Daniel 00:28:47.625 --> 00:28:50.375 is that no one withholds anything from him. 00:28:50.458 --> 00:28:53.500 Yes? Because he'd be able to tell. 00:28:54.500 --> 00:28:59.375 You had more than one glass of wine, but that does not mean you made a mistake. 00:28:59.458 --> 00:29:02.125 Because you would know, right? 00:29:07.583 --> 00:29:09.708 Let my daughter go. 00:29:11.625 --> 00:29:14.375 And, what, you want me to say the right words? 00:29:15.000 --> 00:29:16.208 OK, I can do that. 00:29:16.250 --> 00:29:18.208 I don't want you to say them, 00:29:18.250 --> 00:29:19.750 I want you to MEAN them! 00:29:20.541 --> 00:29:24.041 You think you're a good man. 00:29:26.458 --> 00:29:28.166 You're arrogant, 00:29:28.208 --> 00:29:33.250 and it is very, very important that you realise that. 00:29:33.291 --> 00:29:34.666 You don't need to do this. 00:29:34.708 --> 00:29:38.166 You don't! You wouldn't need to do this! 00:29:38.208 --> 00:29:41.458 If it happened to you, you'd just lawyer up! 00:29:42.250 --> 00:29:46.000 Spend thousands suing or campaigning. 00:29:46.958 --> 00:29:49.500 I don't have any money or time. 00:29:49.541 --> 00:29:51.166 I need to work. 00:29:51.208 --> 00:29:54.291 And so, instead, I have to just do what everybody else does... 00:29:54.375 --> 00:29:56.916 I have to make a complaint and go to the authorities. 00:29:56.958 --> 00:30:00.083 And every time I get a door slammed in my face! 00:30:00.791 --> 00:30:01.791 Dan... 00:30:01.958 --> 00:30:04.708 Dan, the truth is, in that moment... 00:30:04.750 --> 00:30:06.958 Stop using that voice! 00:30:07.000 --> 00:30:10.291 You keep saying the same thing again and again! 00:30:10.333 --> 00:30:14.083 I know you made a mistake. 00:30:14.750 --> 00:30:17.583 I saw your eyes. I can see your eyes now. 00:30:17.625 --> 00:30:19.000 I know what you're hiding. 00:30:20.375 --> 00:30:22.375 What do you think? You're a psychiatrist. 00:30:23.041 --> 00:30:24.791 Do you think he's telling the truth? 00:30:25.791 --> 00:30:27.541 I trust him. 00:30:27.583 --> 00:30:28.791 Well... 00:30:28.833 --> 00:30:32.625 Ha! I think we've established that you don't. 00:30:35.541 --> 00:30:37.583 - Show him. - MMum? 00:30:37.625 --> 00:30:39.208 God! God! 00:30:39.250 --> 00:30:40.208 - No, no! No, no, no. - Get off me! 00:30:40.208 --> 00:30:41.583 Stop! Stop! 00:30:41.625 --> 00:30:43.958 - OK. - Open the door. 00:30:44.000 --> 00:30:46.250 Alana, it's going to be OK. It's going to be fine. 00:30:49.208 --> 00:30:52.375 Alana, it's going to be all right. Dan, wait. Dan. 00:30:55.916 --> 00:30:59.166 Dan! Dan! Look, we're not that... We're not that different. 00:30:59.250 --> 00:31:01.208 If the purpose of this is to make me understand 00:31:01.250 --> 00:31:03.541 what it feels like to lose a child, then I get it. 00:31:03.583 --> 00:31:07.000 I really do. It's every parent's nightmare. It's not a nightmare. 00:31:07.041 --> 00:31:09.375 It's your life. It's a haunting. 00:31:09.416 --> 00:31:11.166 And we're not the same. 00:31:11.250 --> 00:31:15.166 I started with nothing, but I try to do the right thing. 00:31:15.250 --> 00:31:16.875 - II go to work every day. - Me too. 00:31:16.916 --> 00:31:18.708 Faithful to my wife. 00:31:18.750 --> 00:31:21.125 I don't try and control my kids like you do... - No, Dad. 00:31:21.208 --> 00:31:23.500 - Wait, wait, wait! - .. do with yours! 00:31:25.875 --> 00:31:28.583 - Just stop. - Jon, do something! 00:31:28.625 --> 00:31:30.916 Dan... Dan, you don't want to do this. 00:31:30.958 --> 00:31:34.666 This is nothing like you, right? Right? Put it down. 00:31:34.708 --> 00:31:37.125 Jon, is he right? Is there something you're hiding? 00:31:37.208 --> 00:31:38.750 - No! - None of that would matter! 00:31:38.791 --> 00:31:40.250 I feel mad! 00:31:41.208 --> 00:31:42.708 But I'm not! 00:31:42.750 --> 00:31:44.458 - Am I? - Jon! 00:31:44.500 --> 00:31:47.458 - Am I? - Please, please, stop! Please! 00:31:47.500 --> 00:31:50.000 OK! OK! OK. Yes. 00:31:50.791 --> 00:31:52.083 Yes, I er... 00:31:52.125 --> 00:31:55.125 I don't know if it was the drink or not, but I... 00:31:58.166 --> 00:32:00.333 I made... I made a mistake. 00:32:03.000 --> 00:32:08.666 And... And now I will tell you exactly what I did if... if you stop. 00:32:13.916 --> 00:32:15.500 Please. 00:32:35.125 --> 00:32:37.166 Alana! Alana, go inside. 00:32:38.000 --> 00:32:39.125 Call the police. 00:32:41.291 --> 00:32:43.333 You're not what she thought you were. 00:32:45.875 --> 00:32:47.875 Come on. 00:32:51.750 --> 00:32:53.625 You've lost her. 00:33:09.916 --> 00:33:11.791 Tell me what happened. 00:33:11.833 --> 00:33:16.666 Those final moments with Alex, you were there, you were with him. 00:33:16.708 --> 00:33:19.791 Tell me... what he went through. 00:33:22.000 --> 00:33:24.125 Tell me what you did. 00:33:27.625 --> 00:33:29.583 The ventricle was damaged. 00:33:30.458 --> 00:33:34.500 It's an established technique to insert a catheter, 00:33:34.541 --> 00:33:39.500 inflate the balloon and pull it back to block the hole. 00:33:40.916 --> 00:33:42.875 But when I pulled on it... 00:33:44.541 --> 00:33:46.875 I pulled too hard... 00:33:47.875 --> 00:33:49.875 too quickly. 00:33:50.583 --> 00:33:53.833 I made the hole much wider. 00:33:54.541 --> 00:33:56.416 I knew straight away what I'd done. 00:33:57.583 --> 00:34:00.083 I'd hoped it would be all right, but then... 00:34:01.083 --> 00:34:03.583 a few minutes later... 00:34:03.625 --> 00:34:05.625 he was dead. 00:34:09.458 --> 00:34:12.166 They would never be able to pick up on exactly what happened. 00:34:13.000 --> 00:34:15.250 That it was me. 00:34:17.208 --> 00:34:19.208 But I know. 00:34:20.583 --> 00:34:22.666 And then, for whatever reason... 00:34:25.541 --> 00:34:27.708 I didn't say anything. 00:34:28.416 --> 00:34:31.375 Not in the moment, not later to you. 00:34:33.166 --> 00:34:36.208 And when you asked me about the drink, directly at the funeral, 00:34:36.250 --> 00:34:40.250 when everyone was listening, I didn't see the point in getting into it. 00:34:40.291 --> 00:34:42.291 So I lied. 00:34:43.666 --> 00:34:45.458 Shall I tell you why you lied? 00:34:46.291 --> 00:34:48.166 Because I know you now. 00:34:49.250 --> 00:34:52.125 It wasn't to protect your professional reputation. 00:34:52.791 --> 00:34:55.791 It was because of what other people would think of you. 00:34:55.833 --> 00:35:00.333 The daily admiration, colleagues, your wife. 00:35:00.375 --> 00:35:02.875 And particularly your daughter. 00:35:04.166 --> 00:35:07.666 Because if she knew what you did, she wouldn't look up to you any more. 00:35:09.083 --> 00:35:11.125 And that is exactly what has happened. 00:35:11.125 --> 00:35:15.916 I work every day to save people's lives. Long hours. 00:35:16.000 --> 00:35:19.500 But when your son is stabbed, instead of blaming the person who did it, 00:35:19.541 --> 00:35:21.750 you chase ME, who happened to make a mistake. 00:35:21.791 --> 00:35:24.750 I'd have understood the mistake. 00:35:25.666 --> 00:35:27.833 But not the lie. 00:35:27.916 --> 00:35:29.416 Your lifestyle... 00:35:29.458 --> 00:35:34.208 have you got any idea how obscene this all looks? 00:35:34.250 --> 00:35:36.833 You think it makes you look like you've done well, but... 00:35:36.916 --> 00:35:40.416 but really it's just compensation for your huge ego. 00:35:40.416 --> 00:35:42.041 No, this is not ego. 00:35:42.083 --> 00:35:44.041 We've earned this! 00:35:44.083 --> 00:35:46.333 But you want to break it because you... 00:35:46.375 --> 00:35:48.083 You're resentful. 00:35:48.125 --> 00:35:50.583 You're not content, and you blame society, 00:35:50.708 --> 00:35:52.333 you blame economics, you blame politics. 00:35:52.375 --> 00:35:57.041 But it's not any of that. This... This is you and your problems. 00:35:57.083 --> 00:35:59.333 Most people would not do what you've done today! 00:35:59.375 --> 00:36:02.875 Yeah. Yeah, come on. You want to kill me. 00:36:02.958 --> 00:36:05.916 You've threatened my daughter. You come here and threaten her! 00:36:06.000 --> 00:36:08.416 - Pick it up. Pick it up! Use it! - For goodness sake! 00:36:08.458 --> 00:36:10.208 - Come on, pick it up! - No. 00:36:10.250 --> 00:36:12.500 You know you want to use it. Pick it up. 00:36:14.125 --> 00:36:16.583 Come on, pick it up. Pick it up. You want to pick up the knife. 00:36:16.625 --> 00:36:19.541 - Come on, use the knife! Use it! - I'm not going... No, no. 00:36:19.583 --> 00:36:21.583 Come on, show me the real you! 00:36:21.625 --> 00:36:23.125 Forget your daughter, Jon. 00:36:24.333 --> 00:36:25.958 You've lost her. 00:36:37.833 --> 00:36:38.916 - Dad, stop! - Oi! 00:37:19.791 --> 00:37:22.125 Catherine came second in the hundred metres. 00:37:23.166 --> 00:37:24.250 Mark... 00:37:25.375 --> 00:37:27.375 drew you a picture... 00:37:28.291 --> 00:37:29.291 Don't know why. 00:37:44.791 --> 00:37:45.958 Thank you. 00:37:46.791 --> 00:37:48.041 What for? 00:37:49.250 --> 00:37:51.083 Not leaving me. 00:37:52.333 --> 00:37:55.125 - I married you. - Yeah, but still... 00:37:58.333 --> 00:37:59.750 Yeah. 00:38:04.875 --> 00:38:07.166 Do you want me to be here when he comes? 00:38:09.500 --> 00:38:11.083 No. 00:38:11.125 --> 00:38:12.625 You don't have to do this. 00:38:12.708 --> 00:38:14.708 It's OK. 00:38:14.791 --> 00:38:15.708 I'll be back. 00:38:15.916 --> 00:38:17.916 Mum's bringing the kids. 00:38:49.500 --> 00:38:52.625 Thank you for agreeing to see me. 00:39:01.625 --> 00:39:03.375 Can I...? 00:39:19.083 --> 00:39:20.875 OK. 00:39:27.333 --> 00:39:29.500 I told the police I didn't want to press charges. 00:39:30.916 --> 00:39:32.333 Me too. 00:39:32.958 --> 00:39:36.333 My psychologist said it was important I say sorry. 00:39:38.875 --> 00:39:40.291 Go on, then. 00:39:44.333 --> 00:39:46.708 I'm suspended. 00:39:46.750 --> 00:39:48.750 Pending a formal investigation. 00:39:51.541 --> 00:39:55.333 I'll be sent for supervised retraining and... 00:39:56.541 --> 00:39:58.541 allowed back, probably. 00:39:59.166 --> 00:40:01.125 They need doctors. 00:40:02.583 --> 00:40:04.583 I am good at my job. 00:40:06.708 --> 00:40:08.708 I help people every day. 00:40:09.416 --> 00:40:11.833 I was putting them first. 00:40:11.875 --> 00:40:15.083 So it was a choice to lie, not pride. 00:40:16.041 --> 00:40:17.666 It was a decision. 00:40:18.583 --> 00:40:20.666 That doesn't sound like an apology. 00:40:23.291 --> 00:40:25.291 It was a mistake. 00:40:26.708 --> 00:40:30.500 But over a professional lifetime, it's bound to happen. 00:40:32.125 --> 00:40:33.500 You lied. 00:40:33.541 --> 00:40:37.666 I lied because it was best for you and for your family. 00:40:38.916 --> 00:40:40.916 Surgeons lie all the time. 00:40:42.458 --> 00:40:44.750 "Did my husband suffer before he died?" 00:40:45.791 --> 00:40:49.375 "Would it have made a difference if the ambulance had got there quicker?" 00:40:50.166 --> 00:40:52.916 We lie to avoid unnecessary suffering. 00:40:52.958 --> 00:40:55.791 We make that judgment. It's our job. 00:40:56.833 --> 00:40:58.833 And that is what I did. 00:41:02.791 --> 00:41:04.625 You're not sorry. 00:41:08.000 --> 00:41:12.333 Does knowing what happened really make a difference? 00:41:14.166 --> 00:41:16.166 It makes a difference for Alex. 00:41:18.541 --> 00:41:20.333 That we know the truth. 00:41:22.916 --> 00:41:24.916 All right. 00:41:31.875 --> 00:41:33.666 Bye. 00:41:54.875 --> 00:41:57.083 She's er... just getting the last of it. 00:41:57.958 --> 00:42:00.291 - Are you giving her a lift, or...? - Yeah. Well, no. 00:42:00.375 --> 00:42:02.458 I offered, but she's getting a taxi. 00:42:08.291 --> 00:42:11.500 - Is this it? All she...? - All... All she wants for now. 00:42:18.416 --> 00:42:20.416 - You need a hand? - It's OK. 00:42:22.291 --> 00:42:24.625 Are you sure about this? 00:42:24.666 --> 00:42:27.083 And Kate's family, they're OK with it? Yeah. 00:42:29.125 --> 00:42:31.708 Well, if you need anything at all, you know, you could... 00:42:43.708 --> 00:42:46.041 - Right, well, let's get you... - It's OK. 00:42:53.000 --> 00:42:57.000 You can come home whenever you want, any time. 00:42:58.583 --> 00:43:00.583 Thanks. 00:43:02.166 --> 00:43:03.625 Well... 00:43:06.583 --> 00:43:09.625 - Sweetheart, you really don't... - Yeah. Sorry. 00:43:10.708 --> 00:43:13.750 Better get the taxi. They charge you for waiting. 00:43:13.791 --> 00:43:15.000 OK. 00:43:15.708 --> 00:43:17.083 Bye.