WEBVTT 00:00:09.993 --> 00:00:13.432 I'm going to fake my death. 00:00:15.992 --> 00:00:18.152 We'll be able to claim the life insurance. 00:00:20.152 --> 00:00:22.632 Don't let me down, now. 00:00:22.672 --> 00:00:24.592 Police, please. 00:00:24.632 --> 00:00:26.632 I think my husband might be missing. 00:00:29.072 --> 00:00:30.632 Or you could just tell the boys. 00:00:30.672 --> 00:00:34.031 If it ever goes tits up, they'd be implicated, wouldn't they? 00:00:34.071 --> 00:00:36.831 He's gonna be fine. No, sweetheart. 00:00:36.871 --> 00:00:38.671 I think we've lost him. I really do. 00:00:40.951 --> 00:00:45.991 I'm afraid they are now calling the search off, Anne. 00:00:48.271 --> 00:00:51.911 Where is the last place anyone would ever think of looking? 00:00:51.951 --> 00:00:54.430 Next bloody door! 00:00:57.550 --> 00:01:02.030 To be honest with you, Anne, this is pretty much case closed for us now. 00:01:22.549 --> 00:01:23.829 John! 00:01:24.909 --> 00:01:26.909 For heaven's sake, someone will see you! 00:01:26.949 --> 00:01:28.989 See who? 00:01:29.029 --> 00:01:30.669 I'm dead. 00:01:35.788 --> 00:01:37.308 Right, come on, Dobbin. Shake a leg, work to do. 00:01:37.348 --> 00:01:40.228 We'll start with Mutual Assured. 00:01:40.468 --> 00:01:45.948 I think you'll find they owe me 136,000 of your Earth pounds. 00:01:59.867 --> 00:02:02.707 And you will go out through number four, won't you? 00:02:02.747 --> 00:02:04.707 Obviously. 00:02:04.747 --> 00:02:06.867 And don't let them give you any nonsense. 00:02:06.907 --> 00:02:10.427 They owe us, fair and square. 00:03:06.384 --> 00:03:08.584 'Good morning, Assured Mutual. How can I help you?' 00:03:08.624 --> 00:03:11.664 Oh, hello, could you tell me who I need to speak to 00:03:11.704 --> 00:03:14.424 about making a life insurance claim, please? 00:03:14.464 --> 00:03:16.064 'Er, hold the line, please. 00:03:16.104 --> 00:03:18.383 'I'll just put you through to the relevant department.' 00:03:28.983 --> 00:03:33.783 Sadly, no, they've not found his body yet, I'm afraid. 00:03:33.823 --> 00:03:35.903 'Right. Erm, sorry, would you mind holding again?' 00:03:35.943 --> 00:03:37.823 Yes, I'll hold. 00:04:09.061 --> 00:04:11.301 What do you mean, "They need to discuss it"? 00:04:11.341 --> 00:04:13.221 Just that. 00:04:13.261 --> 00:04:15.741 No-body claims have their own rules, apparently. 00:04:15.781 --> 00:04:18.781 It's all quite complicated, so they need to discuss it. 00:04:18.821 --> 00:04:20.821 I knew this would happen. 00:04:20.861 --> 00:04:22.540 You've let them bully you, Anne. 00:04:22.580 --> 00:04:25.580 This was nothing to do with being bullied. 00:04:25.620 --> 00:04:27.220 These are simply their rules. 00:04:27.260 --> 00:04:29.860 You can't be trusted. I should have done it myself. 00:04:29.900 --> 00:04:32.180 Oh, my God, I wish you had bloody drowned. 00:04:36.700 --> 00:04:38.020 I beg your pardon? 00:04:39.780 --> 00:04:43.380 You are so selfish. Me, selfish? 00:04:43.420 --> 00:04:46.059 You literally never think about what this is like for me, do you? 00:04:46.099 --> 00:04:50.099 What it's like to be terrified of every single knock on the door. 00:04:50.139 --> 00:04:51.779 Wondering if it's the bailiffs again, 00:04:51.819 --> 00:04:54.659 or another well-wisher wanting to give me a hug I don't deserve. 00:04:54.699 --> 00:04:57.179 Or the police saying, "We know what you did." 00:04:57.219 --> 00:05:00.179 All you ever say is, "The worst is over, love." 00:05:00.219 --> 00:05:01.995 Well, it might be for you, but let me tell you 00:05:02.019 --> 00:05:04.139 it is most certainly not for me. 00:05:04.179 --> 00:05:07.298 On an hourly basis, John. On an hourly basis, 00:05:07.338 --> 00:05:10.098 I am still having to lie to my parents, 00:05:10.138 --> 00:05:12.778 to strangers and to our sons. 00:05:12.818 --> 00:05:17.098 So for me, every day is still utterly, utterly awful! 00:05:18.578 --> 00:05:21.658 Well, I'm sorry I'm not actually dead, Anne. 00:05:21.698 --> 00:05:25.898 I'm sure you would love to have all that insurance money to yourself. 00:05:27.697 --> 00:05:29.777 Ring Mutual Assured 00:05:29.817 --> 00:05:34.577 and tell them you want a proper meeting, face to face. 00:05:36.137 --> 00:05:39.217 And don't take no for an answer. 00:05:47.257 --> 00:05:49.176 And remember the boys are coming tonight. 00:05:49.216 --> 00:05:51.936 So pick up your dirty washing, please. 00:05:53.016 --> 00:05:55.056 And put the toilet seat down. 00:06:08.096 --> 00:06:11.175 All I'm saying is, you read about people, don't you, in the papers? 00:06:12.415 --> 00:06:15.135 People who've had a stroke or banged their head or something, 00:06:15.175 --> 00:06:18.695 and got amnesia, and they end up... I dunno, living on the streets 00:06:18.735 --> 00:06:21.575 or in some hostel or wherever, and then they just suddenly turn up, 00:06:21.615 --> 00:06:24.295 however many months later, not knowing what the hell happened. 00:06:26.535 --> 00:06:29.735 They found his canoe, though, Ant, all smashed up. 00:06:29.775 --> 00:06:31.894 Well, exactly, that's what I'm saying. 00:06:31.934 --> 00:06:34.310 What if it was smashed up because it got hit by a bigger boat 00:06:34.334 --> 00:06:37.854 and... Dad had a head injury, but, 00:06:39.574 --> 00:06:41.574 but managed to swim to shore? 00:06:42.654 --> 00:06:45.534 Well, it's certainly possible. 00:06:45.574 --> 00:06:47.934 And we should never give up hope, should we, Mam? 00:07:38.491 --> 00:07:40.571 See you in the morning. I'll see you in the morning. 00:07:40.611 --> 00:07:42.211 Right. Night, mate. 00:07:42.251 --> 00:07:44.171 Night, darling. Night, darling. 00:07:44.211 --> 00:07:46.251 Love you, Mam. I love you, too. 00:07:47.331 --> 00:07:49.011 Sleep well, all right? Get some rest. 00:07:49.051 --> 00:07:50.811 You sleep well, too. 00:08:27.569 --> 00:08:29.129 'Your move, John boy.' 00:08:33.089 --> 00:08:35.489 Someone 00:08:35.529 --> 00:08:38.009 has been a very naughty lady dragon, 00:08:39.648 --> 00:08:41.768 and is going to be punished 00:08:41.808 --> 00:08:43.888 with a smacked bottom. 00:08:59.088 --> 00:09:03.767 And so, what I am here today to tell you, Mrs Darwin... 00:09:04.967 --> 00:09:08.287 is that, unfortunately, 00:09:08.327 --> 00:09:11.327 Mutual Assured is not currently in a position 00:09:11.367 --> 00:09:13.847 to be able to pay out on your husband's policy. 00:09:15.047 --> 00:09:16.767 Oh. Right. 00:09:16.807 --> 00:09:19.487 I'm sorry if that comes as a bit of a shock. 00:09:19.527 --> 00:09:22.246 It does a bit, yes. Can I ask why? 00:09:22.286 --> 00:09:26.486 The problem is that you have no death certificate. 00:09:26.526 --> 00:09:29.006 But the police found his smashed-up canoe, 00:09:29.046 --> 00:09:30.446 they've closed the case. 00:09:30.486 --> 00:09:33.126 As far as they're concerned, he is definitely dead. 00:09:33.166 --> 00:09:34.966 And I don't doubt it. 00:09:35.006 --> 00:09:37.526 But as far as the coroner is concerned, 00:09:37.566 --> 00:09:42.405 he can't be declared dead until the requisite period of time has passed. 00:09:44.085 --> 00:09:45.645 Once that period has passed, 00:09:45.685 --> 00:09:48.365 and he is then able to hold an inquest 00:09:48.405 --> 00:09:50.525 and thus issue a certificate 00:09:52.005 --> 00:09:55.445 then, of course, we'll be delighted to hon our the claim. 00:09:55.485 --> 00:09:58.925 Right. And how long might that be, then, 00:09:58.965 --> 00:10:01.485 that requisite period, in a no-body case, 00:10:01.525 --> 00:10:03.205 how long would normally that be? 00:10:03.245 --> 00:10:04.804 Roughly. 00:10:04.844 --> 00:10:07.964 The standard time, in a case like this, Mrs Darwin, 00:10:08.004 --> 00:10:10.644 the usual period is seven years. 00:10:12.924 --> 00:10:15.084 I'm sorry? Give or take. 00:10:17.564 --> 00:10:19.444 Right. We had no idea. 00:10:19.484 --> 00:10:22.364 I mean, my boys and I. We had absolutely no... Seven? 00:10:24.044 --> 00:10:26.123 Oh, Lord. 00:10:28.803 --> 00:10:30.523 I'm so sorry. 00:10:33.563 --> 00:10:36.803 Er... afraid I have another meeting. 00:10:38.323 --> 00:10:41.043 Oh. Yes. Of course. I'll see you out. 00:10:43.243 --> 00:10:45.403 One last thing I should add. 00:10:47.162 --> 00:10:52.482 If you do let the premiums lapse during those seven years, 00:10:52.522 --> 00:10:55.482 then the policy would become void, I'm afraid, 00:10:55.522 --> 00:10:58.482 with no payment due at all. 00:10:58.522 --> 00:11:00.402 Death certificate or no. 00:11:05.602 --> 00:11:07.601 Right. 00:11:13.201 --> 00:11:15.521 Well, good day to you, Mrs Darwin. 00:11:15.561 --> 00:11:19.561 And once again, my sincere condolences on your loss. 00:11:41.760 --> 00:11:44.320 You know what? 00:11:44.360 --> 00:11:46.479 It's actually very simple. 00:11:47.519 --> 00:11:50.079 What we need... What you need to do... 00:11:50.119 --> 00:11:54.359 Me? You need to utilise the sympathy factor. 00:11:54.399 --> 00:11:56.839 The what? People feel sorry for you. 00:11:56.879 --> 00:12:00.439 You said it last week, they think it's awful what you've been through. 00:12:00.479 --> 00:12:03.679 It is awful. So we need to exploit that. 00:12:03.719 --> 00:12:05.959 We need to use your pain and misery 00:12:05.999 --> 00:12:08.718 and the boys' grief to get what we need. 00:12:10.358 --> 00:12:12.358 So... 00:12:14.758 --> 00:12:18.438 So you go to them, the police, 00:12:18.478 --> 00:12:21.158 and you tell them how completely impossible it is 00:12:21.198 --> 00:12:23.718 for you to move on, to get closure, 00:12:23.758 --> 00:12:26.118 because you will never, ever truly accept that I am dead, 00:12:26.158 --> 00:12:28.637 until you have a death certificate in your hand. 00:12:28.677 --> 00:12:31.677 John... And then you plead with them, you beg them, Anne. 00:12:31.717 --> 00:12:33.877 Oh, you sob and you cry, 00:12:33.917 --> 00:12:36.717 and you beg them to persuade the coroner to hold an inquest. 00:12:36.757 --> 00:12:38.077 And not in seven years. 00:12:38.117 --> 00:12:41.157 No, not in five, four, three, two, one, but now. 00:12:41.197 --> 00:12:44.117 Right now. In fact, you insist. 00:12:44.157 --> 00:12:46.197 Because it is your right. 00:12:49.596 --> 00:12:53.596 You want me to exploit people's genuine sympathy for your benefit? 00:12:53.636 --> 00:12:57.356 Well, obviously don't put it like that, but yes. 00:12:57.396 --> 00:12:59.436 And actually, 00:12:59.476 --> 00:13:01.796 it's for our benefit. 00:13:01.836 --> 00:13:04.036 That's nit picking, I know, but still. 00:13:04.076 --> 00:13:07.556 Every time I think you can't sink any lower, you surprise me. 00:13:07.596 --> 00:13:09.996 No, John, I will not do it. I will not. 00:13:10.036 --> 00:13:11.795 Anne... You won't persuade me this time. 00:13:11.835 --> 00:13:14.355 No. I won't. Just no. 00:13:16.515 --> 00:13:20.395 So... you expect me to just sit in that stinking room 00:13:20.435 --> 00:13:22.155 for the next seven years, do you? 00:13:22.195 --> 00:13:25.195 I don't expect anything of you, John. Nothing. 00:13:26.795 --> 00:13:29.195 Well, maybe I will turn myself in, then. 00:13:30.555 --> 00:13:33.634 Maybe I'll turn myself in, and tell them everything. 00:13:34.714 --> 00:13:36.834 I wonder how long we'll get. 00:13:36.874 --> 00:13:39.114 It's a white collar crime, but still, 00:13:39.154 --> 00:13:41.554 be a few years, I'd imagine. 00:13:48.554 --> 00:13:51.314 And you'd probably miss Anthony's wedding. 00:14:05.073 --> 00:14:07.313 Hello. How can I help you? Good afternoon. 00:14:07.353 --> 00:14:10.153 I'm here to collect a duplicate birth certificate 00:14:10.193 --> 00:14:13.273 in the name of John Jones, please. John Jones. OK. 00:14:15.152 --> 00:14:19.712 The problem is, the only person who can permit the coroner 00:14:19.752 --> 00:14:24.312 to expedite an inquest is the actual Home Secretary. 00:14:26.352 --> 00:14:28.832 The thing is, June... 00:14:28.872 --> 00:14:30.912 I just don't know how we can move on. 00:14:30.952 --> 00:14:33.312 My boys and I 00:14:33.352 --> 00:14:36.871 without a body, or a certificate 00:14:38.351 --> 00:14:40.071 with nothing to hold on to, 00:14:40.111 --> 00:14:43.071 I just don't know how we can ever truly... move on. 00:14:46.671 --> 00:14:48.151 I will call him again. 00:14:49.671 --> 00:14:52.831 Yes! She just said she'd call him again. 00:14:52.871 --> 00:14:55.231 I know, but I feel it, Anne, I do, 00:14:55.271 --> 00:14:57.590 in my bones, that we'll get there. 00:14:57.630 --> 00:14:59.670 And now we have this... 00:14:59.710 --> 00:15:01.230 That means I can get a new passport, 00:15:01.270 --> 00:15:03.430 and then we're flying, love. Literally. 00:15:03.470 --> 00:15:06.470 We're flying off to live somewhere warm and beautiful. 00:15:07.910 --> 00:15:10.790 Away from all this endless bloody cold and rain. 00:15:10.830 --> 00:15:13.750 And people wanting to stop you making something of yourself. 00:15:18.949 --> 00:15:20.669 And we can start again. 00:15:22.189 --> 00:15:23.549 Just the two of us. 00:15:23.589 --> 00:15:26.309 Go back to how it used to be. 00:15:27.509 --> 00:15:30.349 When we used to laugh and... have hopes. 00:15:31.549 --> 00:15:33.309 And were happy. 00:15:33.349 --> 00:15:35.189 No? 00:15:42.927 --> 00:15:45.487 'The days of waiting turned to weeks, 00:15:45.527 --> 00:15:48.726 'which turned to months, which turned to bleak midwinter. 00:15:50.966 --> 00:15:53.566 'And when I wasn't terrified of being found out 00:15:53.606 --> 00:15:55.966 'by the insurance companies...' BANGING. 00:15:56.006 --> 00:15:58.086 '..I was still having to deal with the bailiffs.' 00:16:00.166 --> 00:16:02.806 Are you in there, Mrs Darwin? Can you come to the door, please? 00:16:02.846 --> 00:16:06.926 'So whilst we waited for an answer from the coroner... 00:16:06.966 --> 00:16:09.765 'I spent my days trying to fend off the banks. 00:16:12.365 --> 00:16:17.125 'As John applied for a new passport with his fake identity, 00:16:17.165 --> 00:16:20.765 'and started searching the world for somewhere we could live. 00:16:20.805 --> 00:16:23.445 'And then it was Christmas again.' 00:16:23.485 --> 00:16:25.885 Hello! Hiya, Mam. Hiya. 00:16:25.925 --> 00:16:28.045 How are you? All right. How are you? 00:16:28.085 --> 00:16:29.364 You all right? 00:16:29.404 --> 00:16:31.284 There you are, Mam. 00:16:39.084 --> 00:16:42.484 OK... "What do you give a dog for Christmas?" 00:16:42.524 --> 00:16:45.604 I don't know, what do you give a dog for Christmas? 00:16:45.644 --> 00:16:47.724 "A mobile bone." 00:16:47.764 --> 00:16:51.403 Oh. A mobile bone. THEY CHUCKLE. 00:16:51.443 --> 00:16:53.683 Do you want a top-up, Grandad? 00:16:53.723 --> 00:16:55.323 Oh, yeah. 00:16:55.363 --> 00:16:58.883 Er, "Why did the pony have to gargle?" 00:16:58.923 --> 00:17:01.163 "Why did the pony have to gargle?" 00:17:02.443 --> 00:17:04.883 Why? Erm... dunno. 00:17:04.923 --> 00:17:07.883 Because it was a little "horse". It was a little horse. 00:17:07.923 --> 00:17:10.363 Come on, we had that one last year. 00:17:13.082 --> 00:17:15.002 Looks really good, Mam. 00:17:15.042 --> 00:17:17.242 To Dad. Aye. 00:17:17.282 --> 00:17:20.442 To John. To Dad. To John. 00:17:20.482 --> 00:17:22.402 To my boy. 00:17:28.002 --> 00:17:30.642 We drove past Butler's Hill on the way up, 00:17:30.682 --> 00:17:32.401 and the snow was starting to fall, 00:17:32.441 --> 00:17:34.721 and it reminded me of that sledge we built with Dad. 00:17:34.761 --> 00:17:36.961 Yeah. Erm... Snow Rider. 00:17:37.001 --> 00:17:38.401 Yeah! 00:17:38.441 --> 00:17:40.681 How long did we spend making that? 00:17:40.721 --> 00:17:43.321 A year? And it lasted one go. MUFFLED LAUGHTER. 00:17:43.361 --> 00:17:46.801 No, no, I don't have children. Not really my thing. 00:17:48.001 --> 00:17:52.121 And after the cancer took Anne, I guess... 00:17:52.161 --> 00:17:54.440 I'm looking for the next big adventure. 00:17:55.800 --> 00:17:57.480 Professional and personal. 00:17:57.520 --> 00:18:00.400 'Right. Sure. I mean... 00:18:00.440 --> 00:18:03.200 'You ever thought of investing out here?' 00:18:03.240 --> 00:18:05.520 That's so funny. 00:18:05.560 --> 00:18:09.760 Well, I think I told you about my affinity with horses. 00:18:09.800 --> 00:18:12.320 Well, it's almost a spiritual thing, really and... 00:18:12.360 --> 00:18:14.440 Mince pie? Yes, thank you, love. 00:18:15.839 --> 00:18:17.359 Please. 00:18:19.879 --> 00:18:21.799 How is everyone? 00:18:21.839 --> 00:18:23.399 All gone now. 00:18:23.439 --> 00:18:26.239 The boys had to visit Lou and Flick's families. Right. 00:18:29.919 --> 00:18:31.799 You could go too, John. 00:18:33.399 --> 00:18:35.879 I'm sorry? You could go. 00:18:37.358 --> 00:18:39.398 Have the life you seem to really want. 00:18:40.438 --> 00:18:42.638 This is the life I really want, with you. 00:18:42.678 --> 00:18:45.478 Is it? Yes, of course. 00:18:48.598 --> 00:18:51.278 Happy Christmas. 00:18:51.318 --> 00:18:53.958 It's just a bit of fun. It's just a game. 00:18:55.158 --> 00:18:58.197 It doesn't mean anything, it's just a game. 00:19:22.476 --> 00:19:25.476 'And then, finally, in February, 00:19:25.516 --> 00:19:28.276 'John got the news he'd been waiting for.' 00:19:29.676 --> 00:19:33.876 'When he first went missing, I stayed up all night. 00:19:33.916 --> 00:19:36.596 'I didn't go to bed for days.' 00:19:36.636 --> 00:19:38.796 It was a nightmare. 00:19:40.196 --> 00:19:42.155 And it's still going on. 00:19:43.795 --> 00:19:47.195 I feel very much in limbo. 00:19:49.275 --> 00:19:51.995 People die, they have a funeral, 00:19:52.035 --> 00:19:53.675 they have a headstone. 00:19:53.715 --> 00:19:57.515 There's something to mark the fact they existed on this earth. 00:19:59.515 --> 00:20:02.234 But... without a body 00:20:04.514 --> 00:20:07.034 I don't know how we can mark John's life. 00:20:11.434 --> 00:20:13.394 It's the same for the boys. 00:20:17.074 --> 00:20:19.674 They need help to move on. 00:20:22.434 --> 00:20:27.113 There was no indication, from our extensive investigation, 00:20:27.153 --> 00:20:31.233 that Mr Darwin could have staged his disappearance in any way. 00:20:31.273 --> 00:20:32.953 What we do know, however, 00:20:32.993 --> 00:20:37.153 is that the canoe was barely watertight, let alone seaworthy, 00:20:37.193 --> 00:20:42.193 so we believe the most likely scenario is the vessel sank, 00:20:42.233 --> 00:20:45.392 and Mr Darwin was carried into the shipping lanes 00:20:45.432 --> 00:20:49.592 by the treacherous currents off North Gare beach, 00:20:49.632 --> 00:20:52.952 where we believe he very sadly drowned, 00:20:52.992 --> 00:20:56.152 with his body almost certainly then being swept out to sea. 00:20:57.272 --> 00:21:01.352 Sadly, we will probably never know for sure what happened that day, 00:21:01.392 --> 00:21:03.992 which is no comfort to the family, 00:21:04.032 --> 00:21:08.151 'but is why I can now record an open verdict, 00:21:08.191 --> 00:21:13.231 'and declare John Ronald Darwin missing, presumed dead. 00:21:26.231 --> 00:21:28.270 'I very much hope you will now have an opportunity 00:21:28.310 --> 00:21:30.110 'to move on with your lives.' 00:21:46.729 --> 00:21:49.689 'Over the next few months, we received cheques 00:21:49.729 --> 00:21:52.769 'for nearly a quarter of a million pounds. 00:21:54.609 --> 00:21:57.289 'Which meant we could pay off the global mortgage 00:21:57.329 --> 00:22:00.289 'and finally start selling the rental houses. 00:22:00.329 --> 00:22:02.169 'All 12 of them. 00:22:03.689 --> 00:22:07.808 'Two months after the inquest, his new passport arrived. 00:22:07.848 --> 00:22:10.088 'It was all going to his plan. 00:22:12.288 --> 00:22:14.968 'What could possibly go wrong?' 00:22:22.408 --> 00:22:25.248 What the *?! 00:22:34.887 --> 00:22:37.007 'Swore blind it was him. 00:22:37.047 --> 00:22:40.407 'Worked with him at Holme House Prison, he said. Alan Hudson.' 00:22:40.447 --> 00:22:42.247 I remember Alan. 00:22:42.287 --> 00:22:44.367 Just walking along the promenade, he said. 00:22:44.407 --> 00:22:48.846 I mean, no-one would like him to be alive more than me, June. 00:22:48.886 --> 00:22:55.126 You've not seen anyone who you thought... looked like him? 00:22:55.166 --> 00:22:58.006 But with a beard? But with a beard. 00:22:58.046 --> 00:22:59.686 I'm really sorry, no. 00:22:59.726 --> 00:23:01.606 I mean, if I did, did you want me to call you? 00:23:01.646 --> 00:23:04.046 If you wouldn't mind, at least so as we could eliminate them. 00:23:04.086 --> 00:23:07.326 Of course, happy to do that. Thanks, Anne. 00:23:18.125 --> 00:23:21.445 I think it might be sensible for me to go away for a bit. 00:23:22.805 --> 00:23:26.885 I've been researching some business opportunities for us in America. 00:23:26.925 --> 00:23:28.885 And now I have my new passport, 00:23:28.925 --> 00:23:31.524 I thought I might head there for a week or so. 00:23:31.564 --> 00:23:34.004 Kill two birds with one stone, as it were. 00:23:35.404 --> 00:23:37.364 Could you get me some cash out? 00:23:37.404 --> 00:23:38.924 Please. 00:24:04.763 --> 00:24:08.163 'A part of me was almost relieved when he left. 00:24:10.843 --> 00:24:12.603 'Almost. 00:24:25.162 --> 00:24:27.202 'And then just two weeks later...' 00:25:10.040 --> 00:25:13.360 She told me it was a watertight investment. 00:25:13.400 --> 00:25:15.160 Stupid tart. 00:25:16.640 --> 00:25:18.159 How much? 00:25:20.519 --> 00:25:23.319 Fifty. Fifty thousand pounds? 00:25:23.359 --> 00:25:25.599 Dollars. I'm not that daft. 00:25:28.519 --> 00:25:30.519 And what else didn't she give you? 00:25:31.959 --> 00:25:34.399 It was never like that. 00:25:34.439 --> 00:25:37.359 She said she had a ranch we could invest in. 00:25:37.399 --> 00:25:39.318 It was just business. 00:25:42.198 --> 00:25:45.438 Can I come through? Do what you like, you will anyway. 00:26:00.957 --> 00:26:03.637 'And so that was that. 00:26:06.997 --> 00:26:10.517 'And now we settled back into a dull routine. 00:26:10.557 --> 00:26:14.077 'With the next two years passing in the opposite of a blur. 00:26:17.237 --> 00:26:20.157 'John kept searching for his dream, 00:26:20.197 --> 00:26:23.996 'I kept working and saw no-one other than family. 00:26:26.076 --> 00:26:29.396 'Very occasionally, we would fly to another country 00:26:29.436 --> 00:26:31.316 'to see if we could live there. 00:26:31.356 --> 00:26:34.796 'John would lose some more money, and then we'd fly home, 00:26:34.836 --> 00:26:39.476 'to drink wine on our own, waiting for something to change. 00:26:59.955 --> 00:27:02.875 'And then, finally, one day, 00:27:02.915 --> 00:27:06.514 'against all the odds, it did.' 00:27:14.174 --> 00:27:16.694 it's not obsessed with law and order, 00:27:16.734 --> 00:27:19.334 meaning you can actually get stuff done. 00:27:19.374 --> 00:27:22.453 It's Catholic - that's one for you there, 00:27:22.493 --> 00:27:26.133 and last but not least, it's just beautiful. 00:27:29.373 --> 00:27:31.453 So 00:27:31.493 --> 00:27:33.533 What first attracted you to the low-tax, 00:27:33.573 --> 00:27:36.293 high-corruption country of Panama, John Darwin? 00:27:38.573 --> 00:27:41.853 It looks very lovely, but it's 10,000 miles away. 00:27:41.893 --> 00:27:44.812 Five. It's another world. 00:27:44.852 --> 00:27:47.652 Well, like I said before, that's exactly what we need. 00:27:47.692 --> 00:27:50.612 A fresh start, a brave new world. 00:27:52.932 --> 00:27:55.012 So 00:27:55.052 --> 00:27:57.212 What would our life be there? 00:27:57.252 --> 00:27:59.972 Well, whatever we wanted it to be. But... 00:28:01.652 --> 00:28:03.732 I've been looking into 00:28:05.571 --> 00:28:07.211 ecotourism. 00:28:08.651 --> 00:28:12.611 So, we buy a plot of land in a scenic spot somewhere, 00:28:12.651 --> 00:28:15.771 near a lake or a river, or hiking trails. 00:28:15.811 --> 00:28:18.331 And we build some cabins, one for us, 00:28:18.371 --> 00:28:20.771 and others we just rent out to tourists, 00:28:20.811 --> 00:28:22.891 and then we start advertising it. 00:28:22.931 --> 00:28:27.010 Riding, swimming, rafting. I mean 00:28:27.050 --> 00:28:29.610 what a life that would be, Anne. 00:28:30.930 --> 00:28:33.530 And I know that in the past, 00:28:33.570 --> 00:28:35.970 I've sometimes bitten off more than I could chew. 00:28:37.010 --> 00:28:40.250 But I really think this one is doable. 00:28:41.530 --> 00:28:43.290 I genuinely do. 00:28:45.010 --> 00:28:47.009 How would the boys visit? 00:28:49.089 --> 00:28:52.729 I don't know, but they visit here OK, don't they? 00:28:52.769 --> 00:28:56.289 Except we'd be living as man and wife there. 00:28:56.329 --> 00:28:58.449 I presume? 00:28:58.489 --> 00:29:00.089 Of course we would. 00:29:01.489 --> 00:29:03.329 And as for the boys... 00:29:04.889 --> 00:29:07.809 OK, so, this time, 00:29:07.849 --> 00:29:11.848 I'm not going to pretend that I've got all the answers yet. 00:29:11.888 --> 00:29:14.768 But we'll work something out, haven't we always? 00:29:14.808 --> 00:29:16.088 No. 00:29:16.128 --> 00:29:19.168 And if you liked the idea, I think they'd support you. 00:29:19.208 --> 00:29:23.088 I think they'd want you... to be happy. 00:29:26.328 --> 00:29:28.608 What I suggest, first up, 00:29:28.648 --> 00:29:31.167 we just take a holiday there. 00:29:33.087 --> 00:29:34.927 Look at some land and just... 00:29:36.047 --> 00:29:37.847 We play it by ear. 00:29:37.887 --> 00:29:40.247 We just 00:29:40.287 --> 00:29:42.407 see how it feels. 00:29:44.047 --> 00:29:45.287 What do you say? 00:29:50.127 --> 00:29:52.246 I need to speak to the boys. 00:29:56.046 --> 00:29:59.206 Did you not consider Alicante, Mam, if you just wanted warm? 00:30:00.566 --> 00:30:02.486 I also want a bit of an adventure. 00:30:03.686 --> 00:30:05.046 I've spent the last four years 00:30:05.086 --> 00:30:06.966 rattling around that great big house on my own. 00:30:07.006 --> 00:30:08.926 Every day the same, 00:30:08.966 --> 00:30:11.046 every day looking out to where your father... 00:30:16.165 --> 00:30:18.485 I just wanted a change, a bit of sunshine. 00:30:18.525 --> 00:30:20.525 I thought you'd be pleased for me. 00:30:20.565 --> 00:30:22.765 And we are, sorry. 00:30:22.805 --> 00:30:25.005 I think we're a bit surprised, that's all. 00:30:25.045 --> 00:30:28.405 But it's a great idea. 00:30:28.445 --> 00:30:30.285 And you're right, 00:30:30.325 --> 00:30:33.085 maybe an adventure's exactly what you need right now. 00:30:52.644 --> 00:30:55.723 Will you stop bloody slowing down? 00:30:55.763 --> 00:30:57.723 What if I see somebody I know? 00:30:57.763 --> 00:31:01.683 Love, you're acting daft. 00:31:01.723 --> 00:31:03.643 Or I'm not coming! 00:31:26.961 --> 00:31:29.521 It says taxi that way. OK. 00:31:48.680 --> 00:31:51.280 This is more than 5,000 miles away. 00:31:53.200 --> 00:31:55.480 Wait till you see the land we're visiting. 00:31:57.320 --> 00:32:00.120 It really is out of this world. 00:32:16.519 --> 00:32:19.239 And this is my wife, Karina. 00:32:19.279 --> 00:32:21.519 Karina, this is Anne and John who I told you about. 00:32:21.559 --> 00:32:24.838 Oh, hello. Hello. Lovely to meet you. 00:32:24.878 --> 00:32:28.238 So, how was your trip? Muy bueno, gracias. 00:32:28.278 --> 00:32:30.518 Oh, very good. 00:32:30.558 --> 00:32:32.358 You are honorary Panamanians already. 00:32:32.398 --> 00:32:35.918 That's actually all she knows. THEY LAUGH. 00:32:35.958 --> 00:32:38.038 PHONE RINGS Oh, sorry. 00:32:39.718 --> 00:32:42.958 So, what's the plan, Mario? OK. 00:32:42.998 --> 00:32:44.757 So, we start first thing tomorrow, 00:32:44.797 --> 00:32:47.493 there are two plots we will see in the morning, one in the afternoon, 00:32:47.517 --> 00:32:50.597 and then we will do the same each day, so three or four a day, 00:32:50.637 --> 00:32:53.597 till either I wear you out, or you find your dream. 00:32:53.637 --> 00:32:56.357 Hopefully the latter. Sounds good? Sounds good. 00:32:56.397 --> 00:32:58.717 Oh, sorry, would you mind? 00:32:58.757 --> 00:33:00.717 It's just a thing we do with our clients. 00:33:00.757 --> 00:33:03.237 'Aside from the initial lie, 00:33:03.277 --> 00:33:06.076 'this was easily the most stupid thing we did 00:33:06.116 --> 00:33:08.556 'in those five and a half years.' 00:33:30.795 --> 00:33:32.115 Annie! 00:33:33.555 --> 00:33:35.995 Shake a leg, love! 00:33:36.035 --> 00:33:38.275 We'll be late for the next appointment. 00:33:38.315 --> 00:33:40.195 Can't we just buy this one? 00:33:42.635 --> 00:33:45.154 You said that about the last one. 00:33:46.514 --> 00:33:48.394 And all three yesterday. 00:33:49.994 --> 00:33:52.874 Could we actually do this, John? 00:33:52.914 --> 00:33:55.074 Do the numbers actually work? 00:33:55.114 --> 00:33:56.754 I think so. 00:33:56.794 --> 00:34:00.594 I need more time to go through them all in detail, but 00:34:02.354 --> 00:34:04.514 my gut tells me yes. 00:34:06.553 --> 00:34:08.713 And has my gut let us down yet? 00:34:10.393 --> 00:34:13.433 'Over the next two weeks, we saw dozens of plots, 00:34:13.473 --> 00:34:15.353 'through several agents, 00:34:16.613 --> 00:34:19.413 'I slightly started to fall in love.' 00:34:19.453 --> 00:34:21.133 And we could do painting classes, 00:34:21.173 --> 00:34:23.212 maybe get in some local artists to teach, 00:34:23.252 --> 00:34:25.612 and cooking courses, using local produce. 00:34:25.652 --> 00:34:29.412 I bet we could even grow our own vegetables... What? 00:34:29.452 --> 00:34:31.612 Nothing. 00:34:31.652 --> 00:34:34.452 I'd just forgotten how pretty you are when you smile. 00:34:34.492 --> 00:34:36.532 Be quiet. 00:34:36.572 --> 00:34:38.332 It's true. 00:34:38.372 --> 00:34:41.612 Well, it's been a long time since I've felt like I could. 00:34:41.652 --> 00:34:45.011 And maybe I'm being stupid, letting myself get carried away with it. 00:34:45.051 --> 00:34:47.691 You're not being stupid at all. 00:34:47.731 --> 00:34:50.251 I mean, I'm not saying it'll all be easy. 00:34:50.291 --> 00:34:52.451 We've got a lot of baggage, as they say. 00:34:53.651 --> 00:34:56.171 And I think we have to accept that we can't change the past, 00:34:56.211 --> 00:34:57.731 what we've done. 00:34:57.771 --> 00:35:00.771 But I do wonder if here, at least, 00:35:00.811 --> 00:35:03.851 we could live alongside it a little more comfortably? 00:35:05.211 --> 00:35:07.650 Not pretend it never happened, just 00:35:07.690 --> 00:35:10.370 let other things be important again as well. 00:35:11.610 --> 00:35:13.930 Like sun. And smiles. 00:35:15.090 --> 00:35:17.290 And s... Shush! 00:35:18.690 --> 00:35:20.450 Which is all very well and good, John, 00:35:20.490 --> 00:35:22.650 but we do still have two sons back home. 00:35:22.690 --> 00:35:24.970 And my mam and dad. And your dad. 00:35:25.010 --> 00:35:27.649 And every time I kid myself there could be a way forward, 00:35:27.689 --> 00:35:30.489 I always come back to them. What I've done to them all. 00:35:31.809 --> 00:35:33.929 And I get that. 00:35:33.969 --> 00:35:37.089 But my dad's very old, 00:35:37.129 --> 00:35:39.569 not long for this world, and 00:35:39.609 --> 00:35:42.209 no of fence, but yours neither, probably, 00:35:42.249 --> 00:35:44.609 as sad though it is. 00:35:44.649 --> 00:35:49.008 So... that leaves the boys. 00:35:49.048 --> 00:35:51.088 And here's the thing, love. 00:35:51.128 --> 00:35:52.928 I listen to them when they come up, 00:35:52.968 --> 00:35:54.648 talking round the kitchen table with you, 00:35:54.688 --> 00:35:56.128 I listen to them always. 00:35:56.168 --> 00:35:59.848 And let me tell you one thing I know for sure. 00:35:59.888 --> 00:36:01.688 They are happy. 00:36:01.728 --> 00:36:04.528 You've done your job. 00:36:04.568 --> 00:36:07.008 They're going to be OK. 00:36:07.048 --> 00:36:09.288 So don't ever lose sight of that. 00:36:11.687 --> 00:36:13.607 Con gusto. Gracias. 00:36:13.647 --> 00:36:15.447 De nada. 00:36:24.807 --> 00:36:26.487 To happiness. 00:36:30.047 --> 00:36:31.806 To happiness. 00:36:33.166 --> 00:36:36.806 'We went back and forth several times over the next year, 00:36:36.846 --> 00:36:39.806 'and in the end, bought a lovely apartment 00:36:39.846 --> 00:36:42.806 'in a quiet part of the city, overlooking the sea. 00:36:43.846 --> 00:36:46.326 'Having also found a plot of land we liked, 00:36:46.366 --> 00:36:49.246 'we agreed John would stay to push that through 00:36:53.965 --> 00:36:57.045 'whilst I went back to Seaton Carew 00:36:57.085 --> 00:37:00.605 'to finally sell the two remaining houses.' 00:37:00.645 --> 00:37:02.805 'ADT Bank. How can I help?' 00:37:02.845 --> 00:37:04.685 Oh, hello. I hope you can help, please. 00:37:04.725 --> 00:37:09.325 I want to transfer a sum of money from my deposit account in the UK 00:37:09.365 --> 00:37:12.325 to an American bank in Panama. 'Certainly. 00:37:12.365 --> 00:37:15.204 'Would you mind holding?' Yes, I'll hold. 00:37:15.244 --> 00:37:17.924 'And then it was time to tell the boys.' 00:37:17.964 --> 00:37:22.604 And starting up your own business, Mam, in a foreign country, 00:37:22.644 --> 00:37:25.484 you feel... confident you can do that, do you? 00:37:25.524 --> 00:37:29.164 Look, I know it's a lot to take in, 00:37:29.204 --> 00:37:32.244 but I just can't bear the thought of giving up already, 00:37:32.284 --> 00:37:34.683 of throwing in the towel at the age of 54. 00:37:34.723 --> 00:37:37.803 I might have another 30 years in me. 00:37:37.843 --> 00:37:41.563 And I think I have the right to try to be happy again, 00:37:41.603 --> 00:37:44.483 to try for a new life somewhere. 00:37:44.523 --> 00:37:46.043 Somewhere away from the past. 00:37:47.923 --> 00:37:51.123 And obviously I'll come back and visit regularly. 00:37:51.163 --> 00:37:53.563 And when I've settled, you can come out and visit me. 00:37:56.722 --> 00:37:58.842 But you've got your lives to lead now, 00:37:58.882 --> 00:38:01.643 and you don't want to be worrying about having to drive all the way up 00:38:01.682 --> 00:38:04.322 to see me every other weekend. That is never a... 00:38:04.362 --> 00:38:07.362 And you haven't ever made it feel like a chore. 00:38:08.442 --> 00:38:10.202 But I just want you both to be free 00:38:10.242 --> 00:38:12.442 to start thinking about your own families now. 00:38:14.002 --> 00:38:15.362 So 00:38:16.962 --> 00:38:18.721 The houses are going on the market. 00:38:19.841 --> 00:38:23.641 And as soon as I've found buyers, that'll be it. 00:38:27.281 --> 00:38:29.601 I need a big change, boys. 00:38:30.801 --> 00:38:32.401 To be able to move on 00:38:33.681 --> 00:38:35.921 I need to be somewhere I can forget. 00:38:37.081 --> 00:38:42.000 'We managed to sell number four in mid-2007, 00:38:42.040 --> 00:38:44.200 'and then a few months later, 00:38:44.240 --> 00:38:46.880 'we also found a buyer for number three.' 00:38:53.600 --> 00:38:56.040 Haven't changed your mind, then? Sorry, no. 00:38:57.720 --> 00:38:59.520 So... 00:39:00.719 --> 00:39:02.359 It's all in there. 00:39:03.479 --> 00:39:07.039 Take whatever you want, or take nothing if it doesn't feel right. 00:39:07.079 --> 00:39:09.359 It's entirely up to you. 00:39:09.399 --> 00:39:11.279 I'll put the kettle on. 00:39:11.319 --> 00:39:12.919 All right. 00:39:26.718 --> 00:39:29.518 I still miss him. Me too. 00:39:33.878 --> 00:39:36.798 Miss ringing him to find out how to build something badly. 00:39:38.958 --> 00:39:41.478 Or how not to handle a work dispute. 00:39:41.518 --> 00:39:43.277 Oh, yeah! 00:39:47.117 --> 00:39:49.637 All done? Yeah, all done. 00:39:49.677 --> 00:39:51.277 Good stuff. 00:39:51.317 --> 00:39:53.997 So can I just ask each of you to sign those, please? 00:39:54.037 --> 00:39:57.037 It's just some inheritance tax stuff. 00:39:57.077 --> 00:39:59.237 All very boring, you don't need to read it. 00:39:59.277 --> 00:40:00.997 Sure. No problem. 00:40:13.156 --> 00:40:14.996 We're always at the end of the phone. 00:40:15.036 --> 00:40:16.396 Yeah. 00:40:17.756 --> 00:40:20.236 Proud of you, Mam. Go for it, all right? 00:40:21.356 --> 00:40:23.036 Enjoy yourself. 00:40:30.155 --> 00:40:32.155 Totally bloody nuts. 00:41:02.994 --> 00:41:04.794 Hello. 00:41:06.394 --> 00:41:08.113 John? 00:41:45.912 --> 00:41:47.492 Hiya, love. Lovely to see you. How are you? 00:41:47.672 --> 00:41:49.511 I'm excellent. How was your flight? 00:41:49.551 --> 00:41:52.351 Yeah, fine, thanks. Let me get you a drink. Have a seat. 00:41:53.491 --> 00:41:55.891 And how have you been, all on your own? 00:41:55.931 --> 00:41:57.531 Yes. Good. Yeah. 00:41:57.571 --> 00:41:59.771 Yes? Everything OK? 00:41:59.811 --> 00:42:01.331 Yeah, fine. 00:42:02.491 --> 00:42:04.131 John, can you leave that a second? 00:42:04.171 --> 00:42:06.227 I'll get you a glass of that stuff you had last time. 00:42:06.251 --> 00:42:07.611 John, what's the matter? 00:42:07.651 --> 00:42:08.970 Prosecco, wasn't it? John. 00:42:14.210 --> 00:42:15.450 OK. 00:42:18.210 --> 00:42:20.330 We might have a little problem. 00:42:21.370 --> 00:42:23.170 What sort of a little problem? 00:42:23.210 --> 00:42:25.370 And this is absolutely not my fault 00:42:25.410 --> 00:42:28.570 because they only just changed the rules a few months ago 00:42:28.610 --> 00:42:30.769 so there was literally no way I could know about it. 00:42:30.809 --> 00:42:32.929 What sort of a problem? 00:42:35.649 --> 00:42:39.289 To get permanent resident status here now, 00:42:39.329 --> 00:42:41.929 you have to have a signed letter from a police force 00:42:41.969 --> 00:42:45.769 in your country of origin, attesting to your good character. 00:42:47.209 --> 00:42:49.809 Which is obviously a bit tricky, 00:42:49.849 --> 00:42:52.408 given that my character doesn't actually exist. 00:42:53.608 --> 00:42:55.728 So you're saying we can't actually live here? 00:42:55.768 --> 00:42:57.848 Not literally, no. 00:42:57.888 --> 00:43:00.848 Oh, my God, John. I know. 00:43:00.888 --> 00:43:02.408 How could you have missed that? 00:43:02.448 --> 00:43:04.688 There was so much else I had to deal with. 00:43:04.728 --> 00:43:07.048 And you found this out when? 00:43:07.088 --> 00:43:09.568 After I got on the plane? I mean, when did you find this out? 00:43:09.608 --> 00:43:11.768 Actually, a few weeks ago. 00:43:11.808 --> 00:43:14.527 And you didn't think to tell me?! 00:43:14.567 --> 00:43:17.487 To maybe stop me shipping all our possessions out here? 00:43:17.527 --> 00:43:19.847 Yep, fair play. 00:43:19.887 --> 00:43:22.727 I could have been a bit more reactive there, but 00:43:22.767 --> 00:43:25.527 to be honest, I was just so preoccupied with the land deal. 00:43:27.167 --> 00:43:29.847 What land deal? The land we saw, love. 00:43:29.887 --> 00:43:31.607 The land we agreed to buy. 00:43:31.647 --> 00:43:35.646 I remember that land deal, John. Of course I remember that land deal. 00:43:35.686 --> 00:43:39.566 But you obviously wouldn't spend $400,000 00:43:39.606 --> 00:43:41.686 on that land deal, if you'd just learned 00:43:41.726 --> 00:43:43.966 you couldn't actually live or work here, would you? 00:43:44.006 --> 00:43:46.206 Only a mad man would do that, wouldn't they? 00:43:47.686 --> 00:43:49.366 It was a bargain. 00:43:49.406 --> 00:43:50.766 No. 00:43:51.966 --> 00:43:53.726 No. 00:43:53.766 --> 00:43:56.685 You're frustrated, and I get that. 00:43:57.885 --> 00:44:00.405 It's obviously disappointing for both of us. 00:44:00.445 --> 00:44:03.925 But everything happens for a reason, Anne, 00:44:03.965 --> 00:44:07.965 and this has actually given me room to think. 00:44:08.005 --> 00:44:12.405 Because in truth, I'm fed up of skulking in the shadows. 00:44:12.445 --> 00:44:15.525 I want to be able to see the boys again, as their dad, 00:44:15.565 --> 00:44:20.004 and for us to live normally, out in the open, as man and wife. 00:44:21.084 --> 00:44:22.684 So 00:44:24.884 --> 00:44:28.204 I'm going to fly back to the UK. 00:44:29.564 --> 00:44:32.564 I'm going to present myself to the police, 00:44:32.604 --> 00:44:36.044 and I am going to tell them I've had amnesia. 00:44:37.683 --> 00:44:39.243 Because bottom line, love 00:44:40.923 --> 00:44:43.443 I've had enough of being dead.