WEBVTT 00:00:20.625 --> 00:00:25.125 We moved towards Doan's Crossing and the Red River. 00:00:25.125 --> 00:00:28.916 And tragedy's next opportunity to ravage what's left of us... 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:35.333 My mother says the pain will fade. 00:00:35.333 --> 00:00:38.041 And the good memories will return. 00:00:38.041 --> 00:00:40.000 I suppose that's true. 00:00:41.541 --> 00:00:44.833 Every person on this planet will endure this pain 00:00:44.833 --> 00:00:47.000 until they are the cause of it for another. 00:00:48.416 --> 00:00:51.583 Someday, I'll die and shatter hearts, too. 00:00:53.416 --> 00:00:56.416 But that is not today. 00:00:56.416 --> 00:00:59.458 Today I am living and I'm the shattered. 00:01:19.041 --> 00:01:22.250 Oughta try and hire a cowboy away from 'em. 00:01:22.250 --> 00:01:24.000 And a cook. 00:01:24.000 --> 00:01:26.666 Can't mess with an outfit's cook. 00:01:26.666 --> 00:01:29.666 You steal their cattle and they wouldn't be madder. 00:01:29.666 --> 00:01:33.291 I ain't looking for a gun fight this morning. 00:01:33.291 --> 00:01:36.833 We'll hire a cook and a cowboy going the other way at Doan's. 00:01:39.083 --> 00:01:42.125 How's she doing? 00:01:42.125 --> 00:01:43.625 About how you'd expect. 00:02:19.916 --> 00:02:20.916 You hungry? 00:02:20.916 --> 00:02:22.750 No. 00:02:22.750 --> 00:02:23.916 Where are you going? 00:02:23.916 --> 00:02:26.666 I need some privacy. 00:02:26.666 --> 00:02:27.875 Why do you need privacy? 00:02:30.583 --> 00:02:31.916 I got my period. 00:02:44.375 --> 00:02:45.750 Death is everywhere. 00:02:48.083 --> 00:02:51.208 It follows us like a stray dog, 00:02:51.375 --> 00:02:53.583 waiting to devour us like scraps. 00:02:56.666 --> 00:03:01.708 The pain it causes is so acute, so complete... 00:03:05.291 --> 00:03:09.625 It's hard to understand how it benefits us, as a species. 00:03:14.458 --> 00:03:16.166 What purpose does pain serve? 00:03:18.958 --> 00:03:22.291 I understand desire and fear... 00:03:24.291 --> 00:03:25.750 And love... 00:03:27.583 --> 00:03:30.125 And how they protect us and better our lives 00:03:30.125 --> 00:03:33.875 and bring new life. 00:03:33.875 --> 00:03:35.000 But grief... 00:03:36.541 --> 00:03:41.750 If I weren't so consumed by it, it would baffle me. 00:03:58.625 --> 00:04:00.208 I know how you feel. 00:04:01.791 --> 00:04:03.541 A lot of people are gonna tell you that. 00:04:05.208 --> 00:04:08.416 Whether it's the truth or not, I don't know. 00:04:10.500 --> 00:04:12.750 But I know it's true when I say it. 00:04:13.958 --> 00:04:16.958 I have sat right where you're sitting, 00:04:17.041 --> 00:04:18.416 thinking the same thing. 00:04:19.583 --> 00:04:21.291 Thinking I don't want to live without them. 00:04:22.708 --> 00:04:24.333 Don't see the point. 00:04:25.250 --> 00:04:27.625 Still do most days. 00:04:30.166 --> 00:04:34.208 But here I am... living without them. 00:04:36.791 --> 00:04:38.291 Why? 00:04:39.625 --> 00:04:41.625 Well... 00:04:41.625 --> 00:04:44.166 My reasons'd be different than yours. 00:04:45.875 --> 00:04:48.166 I don't have anyone left who loves me. 00:04:51.041 --> 00:04:52.333 You do. 00:04:58.958 --> 00:05:00.291 I'll tell you a secret. 00:05:11.458 --> 00:05:13.875 I'll tell you why I'm still sucking air today. 00:05:17.208 --> 00:05:18.708 I'm headed to the ocean. 00:05:22.875 --> 00:05:24.083 The ocean? 00:05:28.750 --> 00:05:30.958 An Apache scout told me once... 00:05:34.083 --> 00:05:36.375 that when you love somebody, you trade souls with them. 00:05:38.416 --> 00:05:42.375 They get a piece of yours, and you get a piece of theirs. 00:05:46.833 --> 00:05:48.416 But when your love dies... 00:05:53.000 --> 00:05:55.041 A little piece of you dies with them. 00:05:57.750 --> 00:06:00.916 That's why you hurt so bad. 00:06:01.916 --> 00:06:04.458 But that little piece of him is still inside you. 00:06:07.250 --> 00:06:11.500 And he can use your eyes to see the world. 00:06:15.166 --> 00:06:16.833 So... 00:06:16.833 --> 00:06:18.833 I'm taking my wife to the ocean... 00:06:22.375 --> 00:06:24.708 And I'm gonna sit on the beach, and let her see it. 00:06:28.541 --> 00:06:29.750 That was her dream. 00:06:32.833 --> 00:06:34.416 Then I'm going to see her. 00:06:37.083 --> 00:06:38.250 That's my dream. 00:06:45.000 --> 00:06:49.708 In the meantime, the herd could sure use its cowgirl. 00:07:54.833 --> 00:07:56.000 Where you going now? 00:08:02.625 --> 00:08:03.666 Back to work. 00:09:40.208 --> 00:09:41.416 Let's hold the herd up here. 00:09:48.416 --> 00:09:49.500 James: Hold 'em up! 00:09:53.625 --> 00:09:55.583 I wonder if they got dairy cows. 00:09:55.583 --> 00:09:57.833 Cause I'd like some milk. 00:09:57.833 --> 00:10:00.041 Milk will spoil. 00:10:00.041 --> 00:10:02.458 The way this damn wagon rattles, 00:10:02.583 --> 00:10:04.291 milk will be butter in an afternoon. 00:10:06.125 --> 00:10:08.958 Grab some more coffee too, would you? 00:10:08.958 --> 00:10:11.958 Take John. I'd like to spend some time with Elsa. 00:10:13.875 --> 00:10:15.750 All right, come on, son. 00:10:16.750 --> 00:10:18.625 Here we go. 00:10:23.291 --> 00:10:25.250 Don't let those traders swindle you. 00:10:25.250 --> 00:10:27.125 I plan on doing the swindling. 00:10:28.708 --> 00:10:29.708 I'll bet. 00:10:42.833 --> 00:10:43.833 Ride with me. 00:10:46.000 --> 00:10:48.625 Gotta watch the herd. 00:10:48.625 --> 00:10:50.083 The first decent grass these cattle 00:10:50.083 --> 00:10:51.291 have seen in a week. 00:10:51.750 --> 00:10:53.041 The cattle will be fine. 00:10:54.583 --> 00:10:55.583 Wade! 00:10:58.125 --> 00:11:00.916 I'm gonna take her to the trading post. 00:11:00.916 --> 00:11:02.791 Do you need anything? 00:11:02.791 --> 00:11:04.583 Well... 00:11:04.583 --> 00:11:06.166 I wouldn't be mad at a chocolate bar, 00:11:06.166 --> 00:11:07.500 if they happen to have one. 00:11:08.750 --> 00:11:10.500 If they have one, I'll buy it. 00:11:10.500 --> 00:11:11.958 Much appreciated. 00:11:13.791 --> 00:11:15.375 Come on. 00:11:58.625 --> 00:11:59.708 What? 00:12:01.291 --> 00:12:02.916 What! 00:12:02.916 --> 00:12:04.166 You's what. 00:12:04.166 --> 00:12:06.041 It's a free country. 00:12:06.041 --> 00:12:08.000 I can look at whatever I want. 00:12:08.416 --> 00:12:12.416 Judging by the way you're dressed, you don't mind it. 00:12:14.125 --> 00:12:16.708 I mind it. 00:12:16.708 --> 00:12:18.833 What are you going to do about it? 00:12:21.875 --> 00:12:23.583 I like this one. 00:12:23.583 --> 00:12:24.750 Let me see. 00:12:26.791 --> 00:12:28.708 You've got expensive taste, boy. 00:12:28.708 --> 00:12:29.791 James! 00:12:32.458 --> 00:12:34.250 You gonna shoot me, little girl? 00:12:36.666 --> 00:12:39.000 Goddam right I am. 00:12:41.500 --> 00:12:43.333 It's harder to do than you think. 00:12:43.375 --> 00:12:44.916 No, it ain't. 00:12:44.916 --> 00:12:46.500 It comes real natural to me. 00:12:48.291 --> 00:12:52.583 Look, we was just funnin' and she pulls iron. 00:12:52.583 --> 00:12:54.458 I guess she wasn't having too much fun. 00:12:54.458 --> 00:12:58.291 All right. All right. 00:12:58.291 --> 00:13:01.333 Just... I put it down, okay? 00:13:01.333 --> 00:13:02.791 I put it down. 00:13:02.791 --> 00:13:04.333 James. 00:13:04.333 --> 00:13:06.083 I don't wanna waste looking over my shoulder for you. 00:13:06.083 --> 00:13:08.250 You won't find us if you do. 00:13:08.500 --> 00:13:10.166 We's headed to Fort Worth. 00:13:10.166 --> 00:13:11.541 Well, I'd be headed that way. 00:13:30.541 --> 00:13:31.875 What is wrong with you? 00:13:33.375 --> 00:13:34.541 Give it to me. 00:13:37.000 --> 00:13:39.958 You don't point this at anyone unless you plan on using it. 00:13:41.875 --> 00:13:43.125 I was gonna use it. 00:13:47.750 --> 00:13:49.708 Go to camp, and you wait there! 00:14:36.416 --> 00:14:40.333 Whoo! Pretty short fuse on that girl. 00:14:40.750 --> 00:14:42.791 It's not long. 00:14:42.916 --> 00:14:45.916 Some of them cowgirls is ranker than the cowboys. 00:14:45.916 --> 00:14:48.000 Like they ain't never had a mother. 00:14:49.416 --> 00:14:50.500 I'm her mother. 00:14:54.500 --> 00:14:56.166 Would you like a lemonade? 00:14:57.125 --> 00:14:58.750 I would not, thank you. 00:15:02.375 --> 00:15:04.041 How bout a whiskey punch? 00:15:08.208 --> 00:15:09.750 You look like you could use it. 00:15:14.833 --> 00:15:15.833 Would you join me? 00:15:17.333 --> 00:15:21.375 Sister, I been joining you since noon. 00:15:30.875 --> 00:15:32.458 Ice. 00:15:32.458 --> 00:15:35.416 My husband bought a block in Fort Worth in January. 00:15:35.416 --> 00:15:38.166 Got the ice box down our well. 00:15:38.166 --> 00:15:39.750 Hundred pound block will last till June 00:15:39.750 --> 00:15:42.250 if we don't get in there much. Mm. 00:15:42.250 --> 00:15:43.375 This is the last of it 00:15:43.375 --> 00:15:45.083 and I ain't letting one bit go to waste. 00:16:00.916 --> 00:16:04.250 Sorry. Thank you. 00:16:06.166 --> 00:16:07.625 Children can have that effect. 00:16:08.625 --> 00:16:09.791 Mine sure did. 00:16:15.916 --> 00:16:16.916 How was it? 00:16:25.958 --> 00:16:27.250 Not worth going. 00:16:29.041 --> 00:16:30.458 They never are. 00:16:36.791 --> 00:16:38.333 Stars for a blanket. 00:16:41.208 --> 00:16:42.375 Ground for a bed. 00:16:45.083 --> 00:16:49.000 Good horse, open country. 00:16:50.625 --> 00:16:52.166 That's all a cowboy needs. 00:16:54.583 --> 00:16:56.250 Guess it's all a cowgirl needs too. 00:17:10.375 --> 00:17:12.750 Oregon? 00:17:12.750 --> 00:17:13.750 Yep. 00:17:16.916 --> 00:17:19.166 Mmmm. 00:17:19.166 --> 00:17:22.541 We'll put your wagon and horses on a train 00:17:22.541 --> 00:17:24.583 and send you wherever you want to go. 00:17:28.000 --> 00:17:29.750 Why can't they cook for themselves? 00:17:31.916 --> 00:17:33.750 Can't do much of nothing for themselves. 00:17:36.125 --> 00:17:38.208 Which way you going? 00:17:38.541 --> 00:17:39.791 We'll cut through South Pass, 00:17:40.833 --> 00:17:44.791 Drop into Salt Lake, and head west from there. 00:17:44.791 --> 00:17:46.666 You won't beat the winter. 00:17:46.666 --> 00:17:47.666 We'll beat it. 00:17:50.458 --> 00:17:52.500 What about beef? 00:17:52.500 --> 00:17:54.375 Hmm? You got beef? 00:17:54.375 --> 00:17:56.458 'Cause there ain't shit for game once you hit Kansas. 00:17:57.041 --> 00:17:58.625 Fifty head. 00:18:01.458 --> 00:18:03.541 What else you gonna do? 00:18:12.083 --> 00:18:14.458 You buy the supplies 00:18:14.458 --> 00:18:17.333 and I'm hundred fifty a month, plus the freight home. 00:18:17.333 --> 00:18:19.125 Deal. 00:18:19.125 --> 00:18:23.791 It's my chuck wagon, so it's my rules. 00:18:23.791 --> 00:18:25.375 They eat what I cook. 00:18:25.375 --> 00:18:27.666 If they don't like it they can complain to somebody else 00:18:27.666 --> 00:18:29.208 'cause I don't wanna fucking hear it. 00:18:30.791 --> 00:18:33.708 Your wagon, your rules. 00:18:36.458 --> 00:18:40.416 Gonna cost about... 00:18:40.416 --> 00:18:41.708 six hundred to stock up. 00:18:42.833 --> 00:18:45.083 Why six hundred? 00:18:45.083 --> 00:18:47.416 'Cause this is the last store 'fore we get to Wyoming. 00:18:49.750 --> 00:18:51.333 What about Abilene? 00:18:53.625 --> 00:18:54.708 Mm-mmm. 00:19:12.791 --> 00:19:15.666 Oh, Lord Jesus, be with me. 00:19:32.208 --> 00:19:36.208 You know, there's going to be a school here next year. 00:19:36.208 --> 00:19:39.666 Ten years there wasn't nothing, 00:19:39.666 --> 00:19:42.166 not a soul in this country. Mm. 00:19:42.166 --> 00:19:44.083 And now there's gonna be a school. 00:19:44.083 --> 00:19:46.125 That's progress. 00:19:46.125 --> 00:19:48.583 I'm not even sure I know what that word means anymore. 00:19:55.333 --> 00:19:56.583 Nobody does! 00:20:08.708 --> 00:20:09.791 Miss Carol? 00:20:11.375 --> 00:20:14.250 Miss Carol, I need to supply up! 00:20:14.250 --> 00:20:17.958 Write down what you take. I'll be there in a minute. 00:20:20.541 --> 00:20:22.625 Write down what you take? 00:20:25.583 --> 00:20:27.333 All right! 00:20:50.416 --> 00:20:53.083 Give you 35 dollars for all of it. 00:20:53.083 --> 00:20:56.208 - I'll take it. - All right. 00:20:56.208 --> 00:20:57.958 You want cash or you wanna trade? 00:20:57.958 --> 00:20:59.166 Cash. 00:21:00.166 --> 00:21:01.291 All right. 00:21:16.833 --> 00:21:18.333 Pretty. 00:21:19.916 --> 00:21:23.000 Uh-huh. From France. 00:21:23.000 --> 00:21:25.583 What you doing with it? 00:21:25.625 --> 00:21:27.250 Mister, if you ain't got money 00:21:27.250 --> 00:21:29.250 and you ain't got beans or coffee 00:21:29.250 --> 00:21:32.083 or a pot to boil it in, people will trade away anything. 00:21:32.333 --> 00:21:34.791 Further away you get from concrete, 00:21:34.791 --> 00:21:36.916 the more worthless those pretty things become. 00:21:39.500 --> 00:21:41.583 How much for it? 00:21:41.583 --> 00:21:44.375 - Fifty dollars. - Fifty dollars? 00:21:44.708 --> 00:21:47.333 Ain't no damn concrete 'round here. 00:21:47.333 --> 00:21:50.166 'Cause when I take it to the concrete it's worth 50. 00:21:52.833 --> 00:21:54.375 Tell you what. 00:21:57.416 --> 00:21:58.958 Here's 15. 00:22:01.750 --> 00:22:04.000 Keep that 35 and we're even. 00:22:16.916 --> 00:22:19.291 All the way to Oregon with them? 00:22:19.291 --> 00:22:21.625 That's the plan. 00:22:21.625 --> 00:22:24.625 Who taught 'em how to hitch a wagon? 00:22:24.625 --> 00:22:28.041 These folks are a work in progress. 00:22:28.041 --> 00:22:30.500 Well, I'd say you ain't there yet. 00:22:32.958 --> 00:22:33.958 Nope. 00:22:35.625 --> 00:22:38.375 You all have any trouble with bandits? 00:22:38.375 --> 00:22:40.916 We had our share. 00:22:40.916 --> 00:22:42.458 How'd they handle it? 00:22:42.458 --> 00:22:45.125 They're here aren't they? 00:22:45.333 --> 00:22:47.250 It's gonna get worse. 00:22:47.250 --> 00:22:50.125 And once you get to Wyoming? 00:22:50.125 --> 00:22:51.458 Every sorry bastard on this earth is hid out 00:22:51.458 --> 00:22:53.166 in that son of a bitch. 00:22:53.375 --> 00:22:56.000 And the Indians ain't as tame as the papers say they is. 00:22:56.000 --> 00:22:57.625 So people keep telling me. 00:22:57.708 --> 00:23:01.166 Look, Captain... 00:23:01.166 --> 00:23:01.500 Look, Captain... 00:23:01.500 --> 00:23:03.708 I been in my fair share of gunfights 00:23:04.166 --> 00:23:07.375 and I ain't trying to get in another one. 00:23:07.375 --> 00:23:08.666 I ju... I don't... 00:23:13.541 --> 00:23:14.583 Hundred a month you say? 00:23:18.125 --> 00:23:19.333 Yep. 00:23:19.333 --> 00:23:21.333 How's the food? 00:23:21.333 --> 00:23:23.583 If we can get Cookie hired it's the same food 00:23:23.583 --> 00:23:25.041 you been eatin'. 00:23:25.250 --> 00:23:26.500 I'll ride the trail with you. 00:23:27.916 --> 00:23:30.375 Grab yourgear. Toss it in that second wagon. 00:23:30.916 --> 00:23:33.041 Well, everything I own is strapped to this saddle. 00:23:39.333 --> 00:23:41.791 I thought you was working with Swenson? 00:23:41.791 --> 00:23:44.625 We're riding a herd up in March. 00:23:44.625 --> 00:23:47.250 How are them rivers? 00:23:47.250 --> 00:23:49.208 Rank. 00:23:49.208 --> 00:23:50.791 How's Abilene? 00:23:50.958 --> 00:23:54.166 Well, made it out with my wallet 00:23:54.166 --> 00:23:57.000 which is better'd I can say for of my outfit. 00:23:57.041 --> 00:23:58.875 You hiring on with us? 00:23:58.875 --> 00:24:01.208 Yeah. Got nothing better to do. 00:24:03.625 --> 00:24:07.208 What's her deal? She's pretty sporty. 00:24:07.208 --> 00:24:11.583 She was paired up with Ennis till a Comanchero shot him. 00:24:11.833 --> 00:24:15.125 She plugged that son of a bitch three times in the chest. 00:24:15.625 --> 00:24:17.125 Ennis got killed? 00:24:19.416 --> 00:24:21.625 Yeah, she won't be in the mood for you. 00:24:23.000 --> 00:24:24.875 They're all in the mood for me. 00:24:37.916 --> 00:24:42.000 Hi. My name's Colton. What's yours? 00:24:48.958 --> 00:24:50.083 What do I call ya? 00:24:52.166 --> 00:24:53.208 You don't. 00:24:57.916 --> 00:25:00.041 Ennis was a friend of mine. 00:25:07.666 --> 00:25:08.875 He was a good hand. 00:25:10.666 --> 00:25:11.791 I'm sorry he's gone. 00:25:14.166 --> 00:25:15.541 Me too. 00:25:16.916 --> 00:25:23.208 If... if I can do anything... 00:25:23.208 --> 00:25:24.208 let me know. 00:25:28.250 --> 00:25:29.625 There's nothing to do. 00:25:35.083 --> 00:25:36.083 Ma'am. 00:25:47.208 --> 00:25:49.541 They was more than paired up. 00:25:49.541 --> 00:25:52.125 She's in mourning like a damn widow. 00:25:52.125 --> 00:25:54.833 She is a widow. 00:26:20.041 --> 00:26:21.083 Girl... 00:26:22.833 --> 00:26:26.083 You go looking for trouble, you gonna find it every time. 00:26:31.250 --> 00:26:34.375 I wasn't looking for nuthin' and it still found me. 00:26:45.625 --> 00:26:47.500 We should have a look at the river. 00:26:48.291 --> 00:26:49.625 Take John to your mom. 00:26:51.500 --> 00:26:52.500 She ain't back yet. 00:27:05.916 --> 00:27:07.250 Hold him for me? 00:27:40.166 --> 00:27:41.791 Don't make any sense. 00:27:49.750 --> 00:27:53.208 Give me a minute. 00:27:53.208 --> 00:27:55.750 Two, three... 00:27:55.750 --> 00:27:57.541 Look at you! Oh my God. 00:27:57.541 --> 00:28:00.333 Oh my God. 00:28:00.333 --> 00:28:02.208 I've never seen that before. 00:28:03.583 --> 00:28:05.666 Never seen it before! 00:28:07.125 --> 00:28:08.916 Hey. 00:28:12.500 --> 00:28:13.791 I gotta go study the river. 00:28:17.375 --> 00:28:21.291 Study the river. 00:28:21.291 --> 00:28:23.166 Can I trust you to stay here? 00:28:23.166 --> 00:28:27.166 Yep. This long. As long as this is. 00:28:30.791 --> 00:28:33.666 Awmo study the river... Oh no... 00:28:33.666 --> 00:28:36.083 I think I'm in trouble but I don't care. 00:28:40.791 --> 00:28:41.791 Whoa! 00:28:47.500 --> 00:28:48.916 Damn. 00:28:50.375 --> 00:28:51.833 They won't ever make it. 00:28:54.208 --> 00:28:55.833 James: We'll run the cattle across first, 00:28:55.833 --> 00:28:58.208 take the wagons over one-by-one. 00:28:58.208 --> 00:29:01.291 And I mean us. 00:29:01.291 --> 00:29:02.875 It'll take all day, 00:29:03.625 --> 00:29:06.916 but we'll lose half of them if we let them emigrants do it. 00:29:06.916 --> 00:29:08.750 How we getting them emigrants across? 00:29:11.416 --> 00:29:14.083 That'll take all day, too. 00:29:14.083 --> 00:29:17.916 - At least nobody drowns. - That's two days we don't have. 00:29:17.916 --> 00:29:21.291 We should be in Kansas by now. 00:29:21.291 --> 00:29:24.291 At some point they gotta learn to do things for themselves. 00:29:24.291 --> 00:29:26.208 The only thing they're gonna learn crossing that 00:29:26.416 --> 00:29:28.166 is how to die. 00:29:36.416 --> 00:29:37.958 Don't think this is the place to try 00:29:37.958 --> 00:29:39.250 and teach 'em something, Captain. 00:29:39.750 --> 00:29:43.666 It's this to the Rockies, and then it's worse. 00:29:44.250 --> 00:29:45.875 If they can't cross a fucking river, 00:29:45.875 --> 00:29:47.583 how are they gonna cross the mountains 00:29:47.583 --> 00:29:50.250 or the goddam desert we go through first? 00:29:50.250 --> 00:29:51.916 Don't get mad. 00:29:52.541 --> 00:29:56.125 We ain't gotta do what the farmer say. 00:29:56.125 --> 00:29:58.833 If you wanna swim 'em across the river, 00:29:59.000 --> 00:30:00.833 then we'll swim 'em across the river. 00:30:03.791 --> 00:30:06.333 I'm mad 'cause he's right. 00:30:50.833 --> 00:30:54.375 Wherever we're going it better be paradise... 00:30:55.333 --> 00:30:58.333 'Cause it's costing us a daughter... 00:31:00.541 --> 00:31:02.916 If you ask me, it's a shitty trade. 00:31:02.916 --> 00:31:04.208 We ain't trading nuthin'. 00:31:04.208 --> 00:31:05.875 She killed a man. 00:31:07.875 --> 00:31:10.041 And she was about to kill another. 00:31:11.375 --> 00:31:13.583 I look in her eyes 00:31:13.583 --> 00:31:17.625 and the person staring back at me, I don't recognize. 00:31:17.625 --> 00:31:19.916 I will never forgive you for this! 00:31:20.125 --> 00:31:21.750 You don't forgive me? 00:31:23.125 --> 00:31:24.291 I don't forgive me. 00:32:19.666 --> 00:32:21.958 You didn't see the way he was looking at me. 00:32:27.416 --> 00:32:29.333 Wouldn't matter if you did. 00:32:32.375 --> 00:32:34.541 Men don't know how to read that look. 00:32:35.416 --> 00:32:36.916 Only know how to give it. 00:32:41.833 --> 00:32:45.583 I'm gonna tell you a story and you're gonna listen. 00:32:48.750 --> 00:32:50.125 I think I've earned that right. 00:32:51.958 --> 00:32:52.958 Hope I have. 00:32:53.458 --> 00:32:55.541 I'll listen. 00:33:00.041 --> 00:33:01.500 First man I killed... hm... 00:33:05.625 --> 00:33:06.708 He was just a boy. 00:33:08.958 --> 00:33:10.166 Younger than you. 00:33:14.041 --> 00:33:16.791 The reason companies have flag bearers 00:33:16.791 --> 00:33:19.583 is so soldiers know to stay with their group. 00:33:20.625 --> 00:33:22.291 And generals on the hill 00:33:23.125 --> 00:33:26.000 can track the progress of the battle. 00:33:26.000 --> 00:33:29.750 So much dust and smoke in battle. 00:33:30.750 --> 00:33:32.083 You're fighting in a fog. 00:33:33.208 --> 00:33:34.875 It's hard to make out the enemy. 00:33:34.875 --> 00:33:38.333 Can't tell your men from theirs. 00:33:38.583 --> 00:33:40.916 But you can always look up and see the flags. 00:33:48.083 --> 00:33:50.541 So, we shoot flag bearers first. 00:33:53.458 --> 00:33:54.875 And I did. 00:33:57.000 --> 00:33:59.625 That boy's face was burned into my brain. 00:34:00.958 --> 00:34:02.541 The whole world seemed to stop 00:34:02.541 --> 00:34:06.666 as this boy, he's looking right at me. 00:34:09.583 --> 00:34:11.833 By the end of the battle, I... 00:34:13.916 --> 00:34:15.458 I'd killed so many men. 00:34:16.750 --> 00:34:18.541 I couldn't remember what that boy looked like. 00:34:23.750 --> 00:34:25.041 Still can't. 00:34:28.875 --> 00:34:31.958 That man you shot was already dead. 00:34:34.916 --> 00:34:38.708 Whether we hanged him or he bled out, 00:34:39.083 --> 00:34:41.166 his time on this earth was done. 00:34:45.458 --> 00:34:46.791 You did not kill him. 00:34:48.958 --> 00:34:50.125 Understand? 00:34:53.458 --> 00:34:55.958 The meanest thing you can do to yourself 00:34:55.958 --> 00:34:57.583 is hate somebody else. 00:34:59.000 --> 00:35:02.416 I know what it feels like to hate the world. 00:35:02.875 --> 00:35:04.541 You don't want to feel it, honey. 00:35:05.125 --> 00:35:07.041 Be sad. Miss him. 00:35:08.041 --> 00:35:09.541 Cry yourself blind. 00:35:11.541 --> 00:35:12.833 But you leave the hating to me. 00:35:54.291 --> 00:35:56.041 I got 35 dollars. 00:35:58.541 --> 00:36:02.541 Wish it was more, but it was fair. 00:36:04.083 --> 00:36:06.541 There's stew in the pot if you're hungry. 00:36:07.833 --> 00:36:09.000 I am. 00:36:22.250 --> 00:36:24.000 Where'd you find meat? 00:36:24.000 --> 00:36:26.708 It's rabbit. 00:36:27.125 --> 00:36:28.458 I figured out the shotgun. 00:36:34.416 --> 00:36:36.500 Don't taste like rabbit. 00:36:36.500 --> 00:36:38.875 - Mostly rabbit. - What else is it? 00:36:39.875 --> 00:36:41.333 Rattlesnake. 00:36:42.833 --> 00:36:44.416 Figured than one out, too. 00:36:45.750 --> 00:36:47.125 Got you something. 00:37:12.708 --> 00:37:14.291 Why would you buy me this? 00:37:15.458 --> 00:37:16.708 Well... 00:37:19.375 --> 00:37:21.125 If I looked like you, I... 00:37:23.083 --> 00:37:26.583 figure I'd stare at myself... 00:37:26.791 --> 00:37:28.583 every chance I got. 00:37:33.416 --> 00:37:35.083 This is a present. 00:37:35.291 --> 00:37:37.291 Yes, it is. 00:37:37.291 --> 00:37:40.750 You won't marry me. 00:37:40.750 --> 00:37:43.458 You won't love me, 00:37:43.458 --> 00:37:45.041 but you will buy me gifts. 00:37:46.083 --> 00:37:50.166 You're sad... and scared. 00:37:54.041 --> 00:37:55.833 You have every right to be. 00:37:58.166 --> 00:38:01.291 If I can give you something that makes you happy 00:38:01.291 --> 00:38:03.500 and protect you... 00:38:05.875 --> 00:38:07.125 Don't see the crime in it. 00:38:09.083 --> 00:38:10.375 You want me happy. 00:38:11.875 --> 00:38:13.083 Course I do. 00:38:14.750 --> 00:38:15.916 You want me to feel safe. 00:38:18.333 --> 00:38:19.333 Yes, ma'am. 00:38:41.875 --> 00:38:43.083 That's love. 00:38:47.083 --> 00:38:50.416 Me letting you take care of me is not fear. 00:38:52.333 --> 00:38:53.875 It's loving you back. 00:39:11.041 --> 00:39:12.875 I laid in the grass... 00:39:17.291 --> 00:39:18.625 closed my eyes... 00:39:21.500 --> 00:39:22.791 and I saw him. 00:39:26.666 --> 00:39:28.291 Laughed at his goofy hair. 00:39:31.583 --> 00:39:33.750 Felt the electricity of his touch. 00:39:38.958 --> 00:39:42.750 I laid in the grass and I loved him. 00:39:53.041 --> 00:39:54.458 Then I opened my eyes... 00:39:58.333 --> 00:40:00.166 and I could see color again. 00:40:08.250 --> 00:40:10.208 Ch-ch-ch-ch... 00:40:12.750 --> 00:40:14.166 Hup hup! 00:40:16.375 --> 00:40:18.416 Hup, hup... Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch... 00:40:27.958 --> 00:40:29.958 Elsa. 00:40:30.000 --> 00:40:31.833 What's that? 00:40:31.833 --> 00:40:34.416 That's my name. 00:40:34.416 --> 00:40:38.375 It'll come in handy to know it. 00:40:38.375 --> 00:40:40.291 Don't bother flirting with me. 00:40:40.708 --> 00:40:42.125 Why not? 00:40:42.125 --> 00:40:46.041 You're too pretty for me. I prefer to be the pretty one. 00:40:48.750 --> 00:40:51.250 Ch-ch-ch-ch... 00:40:53.791 --> 00:40:55.750 Bet you prefer it too. 00:40:55.750 --> 00:40:57.875 Ch-ch... 00:41:03.333 --> 00:41:06.291 James: You drive my horse across the river, 00:41:06.291 --> 00:41:07.333 I'll drive the wagon. 00:41:07.916 --> 00:41:09.375 I am perfectly capable. 00:41:09.500 --> 00:41:11.958 I ain't questioning what you're able to do. 00:41:11.958 --> 00:41:14.375 There's three times as many things that can go wrong 00:41:14.375 --> 00:41:16.875 in the water with that. 00:41:16.875 --> 00:41:20.583 Now, you can not forgive me all you want. 00:41:21.208 --> 00:41:22.833 Add this to your list of reasons. 00:41:22.833 --> 00:41:24.250 But I ain't losing you to a river. 00:41:26.916 --> 00:41:28.208 You're forgiven. 00:41:46.625 --> 00:41:47.750 Good morning. 00:41:49.875 --> 00:41:51.416 Mornin', ma'am. 00:42:21.791 --> 00:42:23.458 No more "ma'am." 00:42:27.250 --> 00:42:28.708 Noemi. 00:42:30.458 --> 00:42:31.625 Good morning, Noemi. 00:42:35.125 --> 00:42:39.291 Mornin'... Noemi. 00:43:30.750 --> 00:43:33.166 The spring's back in your step, I see. 00:43:33.708 --> 00:43:36.208 You're the only person who talked to me about him. 00:43:39.291 --> 00:43:40.708 Thank you. 00:43:44.208 --> 00:43:48.041 Shhh. 00:43:48.375 --> 00:43:50.125 He don't like the water, huh? 00:43:50.625 --> 00:43:53.500 He's excited. The water's his favorite part. 00:43:53.500 --> 00:43:55.625 - Better let him at it then. - Okay. 00:44:05.291 --> 00:44:07.041 Come on, cow. Hup, hup, hup. 00:44:07.041 --> 00:44:08.875 Get up, get up, ch-ch-ch... 00:44:11.500 --> 00:44:14.125 Hup, hup, hup. Watch out, watch out. 00:44:20.416 --> 00:44:21.666 Come on, cow. Hup, hup. 00:44:25.875 --> 00:44:27.250 Let's bring 'em, boys. 00:44:35.750 --> 00:44:37.750 We were leaving Texas. 00:44:37.750 --> 00:44:39.791 Entering the Indian territory... 00:44:39.791 --> 00:44:43.166 and redefining our meaning of unknown. 00:44:44.500 --> 00:44:47.416 Far from the cities that have paved the world away, 00:44:47.416 --> 00:44:50.833 and the farms which have tamed it into a resource. 00:44:53.750 --> 00:44:56.958 We were no longer under the cloud of civilization. 00:44:58.333 --> 00:45:00.333 Only sky above us now. 00:45:01.666 --> 00:45:04.083 No more walking over bridges. 00:45:04.083 --> 00:45:07.291 Out here, we swim horseback through rivers. 00:45:12.083 --> 00:45:16.458 There is nowhere to chain love to vows and ceremony. 00:45:16.458 --> 00:45:20.416 Out here love burns through you like a fever. 00:45:20.416 --> 00:45:23.291 And when the devil comes to rip that love from you, 00:45:23.291 --> 00:45:26.041 there is no funeral with somber speeches 00:45:26.041 --> 00:45:29.375 that dull our senses and deaden our hearts. 00:45:30.791 --> 00:45:32.833 Out here, you turn toward the pain 00:45:32.833 --> 00:45:35.541 as it tears into you, and you let it. 00:45:37.041 --> 00:45:39.750 When you do, the devil gets bored. 00:45:41.083 --> 00:45:42.958 He seeks another soul to eat. 00:45:45.583 --> 00:45:47.000 And you get to live again.